A work in progress

I've been thinking about this whole weight loss thing. When don't I ??? There are no 'quick fixes' and if you're not prepared to put in the hard yards you're not going to get the results you want. It's all very well to watch these weight loss shows where they lose 10 kg in a week, but we all know that's just not realistic.

WW says you should realistically be able to lose 0.5 to 1kg a week and if you did that every week for a year you'd lose 26 to 52 kg - hmmmmhmm, food for thought (so to speak).

I've been on this journey now for 41 weeks and i've lost 16 kilos - pitiful effort really. BUT ..... (hang on before you all blow up at me!! hear me out) i'm so much healthier and fitter than I was at the beginning of my journey. I have been stuffing around for the last 6 months and have been about the same weight in that time, give or take a kilo here and there, but I feel like i'm back on track now and i'm ready for the next step (yes, it's the exercise bit).

Other benefits:

Going from a size 18 to a size 14

Being able to sit on the floor and get up without huffing and puffing and having to roll around like a beached whale.

Being able to run around with Lachie and not have to sit down cos i'm too tired

Feeling better about myself and not hiding away on weekends cos i'm a fat cow and no-one loves me

Loser clothing (edit, I mean looser - I can't believe no-one picked me up on this, oh well i'm sure Kellee (aka the Grammar Police) would have!! *LOL to Kellee*)

Realising that warm weather is not my enemy

Making healthy choices

Not needing to have to pig out to make myself feel better and realising that it actually makes me feel worse!

I really would rather take this journey slowly, it's not so much of a change then. Last Christmas (I gave you my heart .... sorry got sidetracked! haha) I made myself a promise that there's no way I would be the same "Porker Girl" for the next Christmas and i'm not going to be. I will have definitely lost at least 20kg by this Christmas and i'm so proud of that.

So, my next project is to increase my exercise. I'm so lazy it's not funny and i'll find any excuse to sit on my butt and do nothing (or blog!!). I spend a lot of time at the computer, not only at work but at home aswell and that's ok in winter, but not now that the weather is warming up and it's getting lighter at night too.

My plan for between now and Christmas is to increase my walking to 10,000 plus steps a day. I have the treadmill now so there's no excuses. At the moment i'm doing about 8,000 steps a day which includes 30 mins on the treadmill in the morning, walking to get the mail - 10 mins and walking to do the banking - 20 mins. That equals an hour a day so i'm guessing i'll have to do about another 20 mins to get my goal of 10,000 a day and then eventually make it 30 mins to get over the 10,000 a day.

Once that's on track I need to get over my fruit phobia, but I can't talk about that now, that's WAY too scarey a thought, but then losing weight and exercising were scarey thoughts too not that long ago.

Crikey, who knows - I might even get to be a fit and healthy person at some stage in the future!!

Have a great day everyone, thanks for reading my blog, I hope i'm inspiring others or at least keeping you amused while you're here!!

Bri

By the way, i'm going to try and change the title of my blog - just thought it needed a spring clean! Wish me luck - i'm not very good at this technical stuff!

Monday weigh in

Weight Watchers Weigh in

I lost 0.4 this week. Current WW weight now 77.4

Bri

Ouch my head .....

You’ll be pleased to know that I didn’t eat much at the party. BUT I did have half a mini sausage roll, and half a party pie, shared them with Lachie. Other than that I had one bread roll and half a sausage.

The big problem was the three bottles of wine I helped consume. Ouch my head!!

Naughty, naughty, naughty.

I’m regretting it today though don’t worry…… but I’m not going to be stupid enough to say I won’t do it again. Needless to say there was no walking on the treadmill for this little black duck this morning!

I have to apologise to my friend Michelle too for harrassing her when I was a bit too tipsy! (Sorry Michelle, i''m a bad girl!!). Legend that Michelle is though, she took it all in her stride and interpreted my very very bad typing and then was nice enough to ring me up and have a chat. How cool is that!!

Weigh in tonight at WW will be amusing, I was lighter again on the scales this morning so I’m hoping for a loss. I’ll let you know I guess.

Hope my head gets better soon, especially considering I can’t have anything that I would like to eat (insert list of greasy, carb loaded foods of choice here and add a bottle of coke!!). In fact I haven't eaten yet today at all.

On a good note, I’ve noticed that my rings are getting really loose but I don’t think I should have them made smaller yet cos I’m only half way on my weight loss journey, I might just move the ones I can to bigger fingers. My wedding ones are ok cos there’s three of them and they take up more room. The whole ring sliding thing is annoying but also good cos it helps me to remember how good I’ve been (well not yesterday but you know what I mean, right?) ha ha ha ha ha

Hope you all had a great weekend. I’ll get back to you after WW to let you know how my weight is progressing. Wish me luck……

Bri

Decisions, decisions

Today, Lachie and I are going to my girlfriend's daughter's 4th birthday party, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEMMA, the dilemma is - what to wear? Or what not to wear as the case may be.

Hmmhmmmm..... Where are Trinny and Susannah when I need them?

On another note, when I got on the scales this morning (yes i'm still getting on them every day) I was back to 76.4 - so that's unreal (banana peel) and i'm pretty happy with myself today. It's remotivated me to try and make healthy choices at the party today (no fairy bread for me!!). Actually it's more the party pies and sausage rolls i'm worried about.

So this means, hopefully that i'll have a good loss next week and hopefully a loss at tomorrow night's WW weigh in. Fingers crossed.

So, back to what to wear. The weather is really strange, looks like it's going to rain (cat and dogs) but it's not cold. I guess if this is the biggest dilemma in my life today then i'm not doing too badly at all.

Just want to say good luck to all the Bloggers in Joggers who are participating in the walk today. Hope you have plenty of fun mixed in with the walking and talking I know you'll all be doing. I'll be with you in spirit (champagne probably!!).

Happy Sunday everyone!
Bri

Family day

Saturday at our house is family day. It's the only day DH gets off (at the moment) so we usually have plenty to do. Today we have to go shopping and buy two lots of wedding presents, a birthday present for my friend's daughter who's having a party tomorrow AND we have to look for MY birthday present. Not long now til the countdown to 40 starts - sheizer!!

I'm a bit scared to tell you the truth, I can't believe how fast this year has gone and if the next one goes as fast i'll be 40 before I know it and i'll be writing in here "doesn't seem like that long since we started the countdown, does it?"

Yikes.

39 is bad enough (well I can only assume, i'll let you know next week!).

My DH (today its darling husband) has organised tickets to Jazz in the Vines for us (www.jazzinthevines.com.au) . It's on 29th October. My mother is coming to babysit. It's on from 11am to 6pm so i'm sure to get very badly sunburnt, especially with my pale scottish skin, best see what i've got to wear so that I can cover up. I have a hat, of sorts, not sure I like it. I bought it in a rush, I needed a hat for going to the football a couple of years ago and the only one I could find was a straw cowgirl kind of hat made by Roxy, tres expensive, and I think i've only worn it twice so I'd best get another wear out of it. Hope it's not all squashed up in the top of the cupboard!

I'm making a lamb roast for tea, we haven't had a baked dinner for ages so DH said it would be a nice idea. I'll have to try and WW it so that it's a bit healthier than normal, spray oil here we come!

Anyway, have to go and get started now, I wanted to be at the shops by this time but - hey- that's the unpredictable life I have now!!

Have a great day everyone.

Bri

Bugger

Gained 0.6.

I know why, those couple of weeks have caught up to me (see previous entries for sordid details!).

I have to continue being good and I should have a big loss next week. I was really depressed this morning and had cheese on toast for breakfast cos I "couldn't give a damn" but i'm ok now. I only had two pieces (in the old days I would have had at least 4) so I haven't done too much damage. I'll count it into my tracking and just be good for the rest of the day. Deep down I know that even though i've been super good this week and resisted all temptations thrown in my path, AND i've walked on the treadmill every day (not today - more on that later) my previous "badness" has caught up with me. I also know that I can't give up, I have to keep going and i'll get there eventually.

I'm ok, don't worry about me, i've got it sorted out in my head and i'm back on track now.

TGIF !!

Have a great day everyone.

Bri

Miscalculation

OK so i'm not having dinner, i'm having an early night cos i'm absolutely stuffed. So further to my earlier post where I said i'd overeaten, I have in fact only had 15.5 points cos i'm missing dinner. But that's ok, i'm too tired to be bothered and I think I need the sleep more than the food. I'll be up at 5.30am walking on the treadmill. At least I have music to listen to when i'm walking on the treadmill now (Thanks Chelle!!).

I have the world's biggest headache (stress) and I just can't stand sitting in front of this computer screen tonight.

Good night everyone,

I will post my weight in the morning, I just know i'll have a gain so prepare to be disappointed!

Bri

It's nearly the weekend

How fast has this week gone? It's Friday tomorrow already.

I have been really good all week, i've been on the treadmill EVERY morning for 30 minutes and it's getting easier every day. I'm very proud of myself cos normally by now I would have found an excuse not to do it, and believe me i've had plenty of reasons I could have used, but i've forced myself to do it. Only thing is, now i'm thinking I should still do it on Saturday and Sunday cos if I break my momentum will I then start to make excuses next week?

Have also been really good with my food, until this afternoon. The scales have been going up every day and it's gotten to me. I have my personal challenge weigh in tomorrow morning and i'm going to have a gain - for sure - which shits me to tears, i'm cranky cos i've been really really really good, even bloody well exercising - and no results, in fact negative results - well positive but you know what I mean, right? I know that I need to keep it up, I can hear you all now "don't give up Briony, your body will catch up, you're doing really well" i've heard them all, i've written them all, but when its yourself - it really affects you.

Anyway I haven't been that bad, just had a chicken sandwich which I hadn't planned for so I won't have anything else til dinner (salad) and hopefully if I eat early enough it will be gone by the time I weigh myself in the morning. I sure hope so anyway! This is too depressing.....

Bri

Night out

This photo is from ages ago, when I went out with the people from work. This is (from Right to Left) me, Kat (Bobby27 from Ozgeek) and Sarah. I love these girls!! They're the best, especially cos they help me out at karaoke and don't laugh at me when i'm drunk! haha
Oh and also cos they're the best fun to work with.

Kat and I shared a flat for a while, that was great fun! We shared a lot of stuff (like hangovers!).

Bri

Bloody rain

It's raining, but I still went for my walk to get the mail this morning (good girl!!). Now it's absolutely pouring so i'm lucky I went early, but it's not looking good for the bank run. My pedometer already says 5279 as I did half an hour on the treadmill this morning too (yay!! day three and I haven't broken it yet - the habit - not the treadmill!).

It's killing me getting up at 5.30am though, especially with getting up through the night with DS.

I've been really really good with my food, and i'm even tracking again, honestly tracking not "forgetting" anything! The scales are still going the wrong way, I don't know what's wrong, i'm being soooo good it's not funny and it seems like everything is going against me, i'm not going to give in though, i'm going to win this time.

Only a month til the first wedding I have to go to so i'm determined i'm going to be at least under 75kg by then and hopefully a lot better than that - 73 or lower is what i'm heading for - come on body catch up with the good me and shed those filthy kilos!! I would love to be under 70kg by Christmas.

Had to fight with DS all morning, he woke up an hour later than normal and he just wasn't in "go" mode, but I had to get out and get to work. He kept rolling over on the change table and didn't want his nappy changed. Then 10 minutes later he dirtied his nappy just as I was about to go out the door (isn't that always the way) and THEN he put his hands in "it" and I had to just about bath him. When I finally got him into the car he did that stiff as a board thing when I was trying to get him into the car seat and I had to basically push him into the seat.

Of course then I got the guilts cos I felt like i'd been mean to him and I had a few tears in the car on the way to work.

Motherhood - the hardest vocation on the planet.

Bri

Not so bad...

I gained 0.2 - so that's not so bad, considering what i've stuffed down my throat in the last couple of weeks.

Tomorrow is another day and day four of being on track, and YES I am tracking.

No need to change my ticker as that is my Friday weight, my WW weight doesn't really count here! haha

I bought a new pedometer from Priceline today for $2.99 and I think it's the best one i've had yet. Thanks for the recommendation Jadey!!

Bri

How low can you go?

Had to go to the doctor this morning so I came in really late to work. Bought some WW frozen meals and steamfresh veg for lunch for three days of this week.

I got the 2 point meal. Beef whatever-it-is. I figure if this can fill me up i'll save 3 to 4 points every day.

This morning for breakfast I had cereal and yoghurt - no fruit cos we've run out (2 points), a bag of mother earth S&V popcorn (2 points) and now the Beef "thingy" (that's a technical term for those of you who don't understand it) (2 points) with steamfresh vegies (0 points) so i've only had 6 points today so far.

Hopefully that will help me for my weigh in at WW tonight. I haven't been for the last two weeks (naughty naughty). After my bad couple of weeks when I was off work most of the time with DS when I was sick, i'll be lucky to have maintained but will probably post a gain. Oh well, i'm back on track now and I will stay that way.

I now have 2 weddings in November, one on 11th one on 19th and my Work weekend away on 25th - so I have sooo much to be good for.

Will post later tonight and let you know how I go at weigh in, wish me luck!!!!

Bri

Size 14 pants - I LOVE YOU

I went out shopping this morning, had to buy some stuff but also wanted to get out of the house. I bought myself a size 14 pair of cargo pants cos I figured I could fit into them soon, and they were on sale ($20). Did n't bother trying them on, just thought I could use them for inspiration and to help me stay on track for losing and being good.

I tried them on when I got home. Pulled them up over my fat thighs, they slid nicely, over my fat butt, they slid nicely, held my breath for the pulling up of the zipper, no problems there either, ok thought - no way will I be able to do up the button or if/when I do my big fat baby belly will hang over the top - NO IT DIDN'T.

They fit ...................

OMG !!

I'm sooooooo happy!!

So then I thought, shit, bet I picked up a 16 by mistake NOPE - they're a 14.

Next time I went to the loo (and every time since) just have to keep checking that they're not a 16 - NOPE still says 14. Why can't I believe it?????

Bri

I've been good!!

It's the weekend and i've been good. Yesterday, while technically not the weekend, I was at home with DS and then had to pick up ESD (Evil Step Daughter) at lunchtime, so it felt like the weekend. I stayed under my points and even though I didn't get time to walk, I felt good about myself.

Today I wanted to go shopping and DH has taken himself off to get a haircut and left me with ESD and DS. So instead of DH he's now going to be called FB!! hehe

I had my usual weekday breakfast of cereal, yoghurt and fruit this morning, plus an extra - one piece of toast with 5% Philly and WW jam. I usually find that when I have a 5 point breakfast I can last til lunchtime no problems, also cos I eat a bit later on weekends as we usually get a sleep in (up at 7am instead of 6am).

I have three loads of washing to hang out from last night and it's raining. D'oh. Will have to queue it all up at the dryer.

Was going to go for a big walk today with the family but those plans are also put on hold because of the weather. Just as well probably as there is a Dip'n'Dots ice cream shop out there and i'm sure ESD would have asked for one and i'm not sure I could resist!

Anyhoo, best go and do some housework and stuff. Have a great weekend everyone,
Ciao for now,
Bri

Weigh in day!

I'm gobsmacked. I lost 0.4. Current weight 76.4. After the last two weeks i've had I was sure I would have gained.

Oh well, i've been back on track for 3 days now so it's obviously working. Good for me. Now I just have to keep it up over the weekend and beyond.

I'm at home with DS today. He got sent home from daycare yesterday as his conjunctivitis has flared up again. Of course today it has disappeared, oh well.

Hope everyone has a great day, especially those of you at work! hehe *evil laugh*

Bri

A new start ...

OK, i've received a lot of virtual hugs in the last 24 hours, I just want to thank everyone for the kind messages left on my blog yesterday (and those sent by email). I was feeling very low, as you well realise. I can’t keep letting myself get into these rutts cos It’s really damaging my progress.

I am going to take one decision at a time and hope that I can string a whole load of them together.

I received in the mail today, THE most gorgeous dress with matching shawl and jewellery, which is on loan from Michelle (thanks again – you’re the BEST) to wear to the posh wedding on 11 November.

I have 5 weeks til the wedding and I really want to get to 73 kilos by then so that when people say “wow you look great” I can say “yes, thanks, and I feel great cos I’ve lost TWENTY KILOS this year).

Right, so I have (going on this morning’s “first thing” weight) 4.4 kilos to lose – I know I’ll have to be very very good and I’m going to need all the help and motivation I can get from all of you to get me there. (Plus I need DH to do a midnight run to his mother’s house (2 hours away) to get the treadmill).

I just want to thank all of you for helping me with this journey, I know that you realise how very hard this journey is cos you’re all going through it as well, so I thank you for your ongoing support. It would be so much harder without it. My “physical” friends just don’t understand what I’m going through as much as you guys all do.

So, today is a new day and the beginning of a new journey to a slimmer me.

And here’s a reminder from A J Rochester. I have posted this before and I have it on my wall at work and every time I read this passage it reinforces my thoughts on this journey:

“I commit to being the very best that I can be.
I deserve to love, be loved and most importantly of all, to love myself.
I deserve a healthy body and I will never give up on myself, no matter what happens.
I promise to do whatever it takes to make it happen.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
A J Rochester”

Thanks guys, wish me luck.

Briony

OMFG

Ok, I’m really pissed off with myself today and it’s depressing me no end. I used DS’s being sick as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted and I have been continuing this for a week now. I’ve put on 1.5kg on my scales and I’m so angry with myself for doing this.

I’ve just lost all the motivation that I had a couple of weeks ago and I don’t know where it’s gone. I just couldn’t be bothered, yep, we’re back to that again. Sorry!

I’m feeling very much like a lost cause.

It doesn’t help that I had some “stuff” to deal with on the weekend and I’m in a bit of emotional turmoil about that. I just feel like crying my eyes out…..

I need to snap myself out of this or I’m going to do serious damage to my weight loss and I don’t want that. I hate being depressed, it’s shits me.

Also forgot to put my pedometer on today.

I haven’t been at work for a week and I don’t’ even know where to start, I’ve completely lost it.

Bri

I need a nap

My girlfriend came over last night to keep me company while DH was away. I think we got to bed at about 2.30am! Yikes. We had a few drinks, played cards, did some Singstar on the PS2 - what a cack! I'm really tired.

DH on the other hand, didn't get to bed until (he says) 4.30am!! The races weren't what he expected and I think it was a very hot day to be wearing a suit! They ended up going to Kings Cross - as boys do - I rang him at midnight and heard very loud music in the background but he seemed pretty coherent. Especially considering they left where they were staying at 8am yesterday morning to head off to the races.

He is currently pushing out some "zeds" on the recliner lounge and DS is asleep too so i've got time to catch up on some blogs.

I have only eaten once today but unfortunately it was a Filet-of-fish and McFries, I needed something as I was feeling very ill and it was 3pm so I went for a quick fix, old habits sure do die hard don't they?

Oh well, I think we're having chicken greek salad for dinner so that will make up for it.

Tomorrow is a public holiday here so i'll try to convince DH to take DS and I for a big long walk around the lake or something. If it's as hot tomorrow as it is today we'll have to go early, or late as the case may be (probably late cos i'm hoping for a sleep in tomorrow - i've been up at 4.30am the last two mornings with DS).

Also the NRL Grand Final is on today and there are a lot of parties happening around here, everyone seems to be having a BBQ - the smells wafting in the air are amazing - I love the smell of BBQ cooking. Yummo...........

My WWA thing isn't going too well. Day one I did 1132 steps and yesterday I did 1212 - I didn't even bother putting the pedometer on today as I don't think it's working properly. Yesterday morning I looked and it said 743 and 4 hours later it said 787 and i'd been out to the washing line 4 times so that can't be right can it? Bugger that is the third pedometer i've bought that has been a dud, or maybe i'm not doing it properly? Dunno dunno dunno !!!!! All I know is if I can't even make it to 2000 steps in one day, there's a major problem here.

Happy Sunday Evening everyone!

Bri

I knew it.....

Got on the scales this morning and I was 76.3 - so i've lost 0.5kg. I'm not putting it on my weight record though cos I have to stick to my Friday weight. Hopefully this will give me a better reading next week (unless all the crap i've eaten catches up with me!!).

Can't blog more today as it's just me and the baby so it's going to be full on today.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Bri

I got bitten.....

I got bitten by the shopping bug too, BUT here's the twist. I didn't buy ANYTHING for myself! What the?

My body has obviously been taken over by aliens - didn't weigh myself this morning and spent money on everyone but me..... ha ha ha.

I just went to get a new pedometer but then I thought I would call in at Target and have a look - it's not often I get out of the house by myself.

Came home with a new shirt and tie for DH to wear to the races tomorrow, a new set of cot sheets and a matching towel set and blanket for DS, 8 new t-shirts for DS, four new pillows for our bed and a cute outfit and cot sheets for a friend of DH's who just had a baby, oh and the groceries but who cares about groceries right?

I really need a pair of 3/4 denim pants but didn't even think about buying anything for me, I didn't even look at SHOES or make-up or anything! What the ?????

Oh well, I spent enough (about $500 today! Yikes).

So now that i've just re-read that, i've realised i'm an idiot. I did get something - the pedometer. Now I can start my "virtual" walk on the Walking with Attitude site, if I can work it out!! haha

DS is much better today, thanks everyone for your well wishes. His eyes have cleared up and he's back to his cheeky mischievious self!! He's just so damned cute, we're going to have a great weekend together, just the two of us!

Bri

Go figure

I've had a bad week food wise, and haven't exercised at all. I was a bit worried about my Personal Challenge weigh in this morning. Then I forgot to weigh myself - WHAT THE?????

Who am I and what has happened to Briony?

Anyway, by the time i'd remembered that I should have weighed myself i'd already had breakfast, a cup of tea and half a litre of water and it's TTOTM so ..... I prepared myself for the worst.

76.8 - exactly the same as last week AND if i'd remembered to weight myself first thing I would have been lighter.

I'll just have to work extra hard this week to compensate for the crap i've eaten in the last couple of days. D'oh!

Happy Friday everyone.

Bri

Where's the positive in all of this?

I have just come home from the doctor's. We couldn't get in to our normal doctor until next Wednesday so we had to go to one of those "we don't take bookings you just have to wait your turn" places. The staff are all major cows and were absolutely horrible to everyone they spoke to today (DH says they're always like that!).

Holy shamoly - what a shit fight. We got there at 7.45am - they don't start til 8am - and there were already a dozen people there.

We finally got in to see the doctor at 9.30am. Jason had already left to go to work as he couldn't wait any longer. I forgot to take Lachie's dummy (which keeps him very quiet for just such occasions) so I had to try and entertain him for the whole time. I'm not really a dummy fan, he has it when he goes to bed and that's it, unless of course he's sick and needs the comfort of sucking. I just don't want him to have it too often as there's nothing worse than a 3 year old child talking with a dummy in their mouth 24/7.

Anyway, Lachie has really bad conjunctivitis - it's dreadful. At least now we have the proper drops from the chemist and hopefully they'll start working quickly. The doctor said there will be a major improvement within 24 hours. I haven't been able to use them yet as Lachie fell asleep on the way home in the car and stayed asleep when I took him out of the car so I put him in his cot. Poor little lamb. His eyes are soooo red and oozey - sorry for anyone who's not a mother and just had their stomach turn! haha

We went to the chemist straight after the doctor's and as Lachie was already in the stroller we walked (it wasn't far so save your applause!!). On the way we walked past a shop which sold burgers, schnitzel sambos and stuff and it smelt UNREAL. I was really tempted to stop and buy something, but I didn't.

I'm going to try and do an exercise DVD when Lachie has his afternoon nap so that at least i've done something, cos I haven't exercised at all this week.

Anyway, I was wondering where is the positive in all of this?

Lately i've been feeling a bit guilty about working full-time and leaving Lachie with the day care people, so maybe the positive is that I now get to spend the next 5 days with him, just him and me.

DH is going on a buck's weekend this weekend and will be gone from tomorrow morning until Sunday afternoon and as you all probably know already I don't have any family to help out so it will just be Lachie and I for the whole five days together. I guess the positive is that I can have him to myself, nurture him and help him get better and we can spend some quality mother and son time til Daddy gets home on Sunday.

I'm going to take full advantage of every minute and enjoy lots of cuddles and (hopefully once his eyes get better) games and laughter!

Thanks to everyone who has left such nice messages on my blog, I don't know what i'd do without you lot, you lift me up when i'm feeling down and I thank you all for that.

Bri

Sheizer

I had to come home with the baby, he's sick AGAIN or is it STILL. I rang the doctor and they said we can't get in until next WEDNESDAY? What the ????

I got really stressed and the combination of that and the TTOTM thing got my defences down so low that I ate half the Pods.

I am a bloody loser .....

I have to have the rest of the week off with Lachie. I have a lot to do at work but my baby comes first. We don't have any family here to help out so i'm it. I have a huge headache and i'm sure its a sugar overload combined with stress, i've already been in tears three times since I got home and we only got home at 5.30pm.

I'm a failure for today but i'll pick myself up, dust myself off and start again tomorrow.

Sorry for letting everyone down and especially for letting myself down, but at least i'm being honest and not pretending it didn't happen and i'm not giving up on myself, no way.

Bri

Pods are banned!

I didn't eat any Pods, you would have been proud of me. I had some WW ice cream and a WW choc pudding instead (much less points).

And for everyone who said "don't let them in the house" - I don't - it's not me, it's my naughty DH. He always buys me food when he thinks I need cheering up. He's been doing it for 8 years and it's hard for him to change, i'll have to give him some "non-food" suggestions!

Haven't done any walking this week with DS being ill, oh well, hopefully he'll be ok and last a whole day at FDC today, fingers crossed. Speaking of which, gotta fly now.....

Ciao,
Bri

I hate Pods

Well I don't..... I wish I did..... there's a box in the cupboard, I haven't touched them. They are hidden behind the baby food but I know they're there. They are my favourite, the Snickers ones.

and they're calling my name .............

Why do the stupid confectionary companies make them in the first place? They should be banned.

I didn't worry about getting DH to take them to work or anything cos I didn't know I was going to have to come home with a sick baby. He's sleeping right now.

Maybe if he projectile vomits on me like he did last night (twice) it will take my mind off the Pods..............

Just kidding, I'd rather eat them all than have him be sick again. It really scared him.

Poor little lambykins.

Bri

Crikey, stupid scales.....

Today when I got on the scales, I was over 2 kg heavier than I was yesterday. Now, I know that the scales were showing a weight WAAAAY too light for what I actually was yesterday but 2.1kg in ONE DAY? How the hell can that happen?

Needless to say i'm wussing out of going to my meeting tonight cos i'm scared.

That is all .....

Bri

Sunday bloody Sunday

I'm a bit hungover today, and I really feel like I need a junk food hit! I will try to be good. We had French Toast and WW bacon for breakfast with a drizzle of Maple syrup - OMG it was unreal and since then i've had a few pretzels, I just need something saltier and fattier!! haha

My scales must be going crazy cos this morning they said 75.5 - that can't be right - I just laughed and said "No way, tomorrow give me my proper weight thanks"!!

Last night was great, I hardly ate anything (probably why i'm a bit hungover - nothing to soak the alcohol up) and there were all my favourite foods at the party (cheese, dip, bread, crackers etc) and the cake was the biggest creamiest most luscious looking black forest cake i've EVER seen - I did not have one tiny morsel! Yay for me. Mind you I had eleventy eight glasses of wine!!

Oh well, today is another day!!

I have a few of Kaz Cooke's "little books" - they're great. She's hilarious. I thought I might (when I remember) try to give you one of her quote's - this one is from "the little book of Diet and Exercise":

"Hold your stomach in. If that's too difficult, have it removed and carry it around in a bowling bag".

Hope everyone's having a great weekend!

Bri

This was taken last night at my friend Kate's 40th birthday party. From L to R - Sue, Me, Kate, Lisa. 

The ticker is a liar

Well it's week two of my challenge and i've lost 0.3 this week. Which is strange cos at the beginning of this week I was on track for a kilo loss.

A few things have contributed to this.

1. I've been sick all week with a sore throat and cough so i've been eating a few cough lollies

2. I have picked up the mail on the way to work (in the car) instead of walking there

3. I had a couple of meals I shouldn't have, nothing bad and I counted the points but I shouldn't have had them when i'm supposed to be focussed on this challenge

4. I had a HUGE dinner last night, also nothing bad, extra vegies and a couple of slices of bread with marg on, but I shouldn't have had that either

5. I thinks it's nearly TTOTM

So, all in all i'm still happy with a 0.3 loss, cos a loss is a loss (of course, of course!!).

But the ticker thing, what's that all about. I changed to a different ticker, which obviously doesn't take increments lower than 1kg so it looks like i'm 76 but i'm actually 76.8 - go figure??? I might go back to the old ticker when I get the time to sort it out.

Also, when I was first doing WW I did actually have a big lose one week and a small lose the next, so maybe it's just my body's pattern? I'm not bothered cos I know that next week i'm going to pull my finger out and start walking again, I have to don't I? Plus i'll have my Walking with Attitude membership by then, which reminds me I need to get a new pedometer so I can start tracking my steps again.

Have a great day everyone - YAY it's Friday, I love Friday's.

Bri

A small setback?

I ate too much dinner, I cooked enough for DH to take for lunch tomorrow but I didn't stop myself when I was full, now I feel sick!

Luckily I didn't eat much at work today so I haven't gone over points, just feel too full (too much mashed potato and pumpkin!! then I had to have some of the fresh bread DH brought home and the margarine was on the table .....

say no more

Hey, i'm not too worried - it's my first blow out in about two weeks!

I can't believe it took this long! haha

And at least it wasn't the twisties or chips I was day dreaming about this afternoon, DH also brought home some pretzels so I have a very small handful of those and shared them with DS.

Weigh in day number two tomorrow, yikes.

I have a wedding to go to in November (on a Friday!!). I'm really going to push myself to try and be in the early 70's by then. If I am i'll shout myself a new dress, hairdo and get my makeup done - if not - well, i'll probably shout myself anyway! hehe

Bri

This is my latest photo, taken tonight. I'm looking a bit tired, but I least I don't look the size of an elephant like those other photos!! This is after 17kg lost.