The "E" Word

I know you won't believe me but i'm going to tell you anyway. I did some EXERCISE today. I even went and bought myself a pedometer. (Don't ask how long it took me to set it! and now i've accidently reset it to "0"). haha. This morning I did (don't laugh) 10 situps and 10 push ups, it nearly killed me, i'm soooo unfit.

I had already done 4976 steps in the last two hours before I mistakenly reset the pedometer and it went back to zero (DS and I went for a walk to my brother's house). This is SO unlike me. I only left their house because my SIL came home with pizza and I couldn't stand the smell. They offered me some and I said "NO THANKS". Who am I, where has Briony gone? haha. I really really really wanted to eat it, it smelt soooo good, but I removed myself from the situation. The trouble is I didn't have time for lunch today and now it's too late. But I just had some rice crackers and salsa so I feel like i'll be ok til dinner now.

Come on GTG Challenge, i'm going to eat you up! I can feel the next kilo coming off as I speak, well technically i'm typing, but you know what I mean!

So what's the go with the pedometer then? Do I leave it on all day or take it off when i'm sitting down? How many steps is "normal"? These and many more questions will be answered when we return!!

Hope everyone had a great weekend.
lots of love
Ciao for now
Bri

Ah blissful Sunday, how I love thee.....

Sundays are unreal, DH doesn't start til 10am on Sunday so we get a bit of a sleep in, albeit with the small one inbetween us, much to DH's disgust!! haha

I actually got up at 6am cos DH and DS were snoring and I couldn't sleep, but I had a couple of hours worth of sorting out paperwork and i'm sooooo proud of myself cos I got it all sorted out. It was actually nice just to have a couple of hours to myself.

DH washed the car, which I was going to do (Thanks) but in return I did the dishes for him.

DS has eaten heaps today, I was starting to get worried about him cos he's been off his food but it looks like he's come good, so no more stressing about that.

We're going for a walk up to my brother's house today. He has 3 kids so DS and the kids can have some "cousin" time this afternoon. I have to go and buy a new DVD player cos ours just stopped working about a week ago, and I was thinking about getting a baby swing to put on the swing set for DS, I reckon he would love it. I'm sure my little brother wouldn't mind one more child to mind for an hour or so! haha

Anyway, best go and get started. Have a great day everyone.

By the way Margaret and Michelle, thanks for the advice about sit ups, i'll be starting them in about 5 minutes. I'll only be able to do about 5 to start with if i'm lucky - haha - i'm SO unfit. I'll let you know how I go!

lots of love, and thanks for all the hugs everyone!!
Bri

Not more housework

It doesn't seem that long since last weekend when I had a tonne of housework to do, and now i'm doing it all over again. It's never ending. I can't believe I haven't posted since Wednesday! The weeks are just flying by.

I have been pretty good this week, except one night when I asked DH to pick up something for tea cos I was too tired to cook, and he brought home KFC. But, in my own defence, I only ate half the burger, a third of the chips and half of the potato and gravy. I would usually eat the whole lot and then eat more aswell, so I was a little restrained.

The other girl that I work with wants to try and lose a bit of weight too so there'll be no more bad influence at work. All the girls who ate takeaway every day have gone. They're also the girls who ate the choc chip biscuits so I won't have to get them anymore either. We'll have Paradise Lites instead, at least that way if I have a couple of biscuits it won't be so bad.

I've also been really good today. Usually on weekends all I do is graze and I haven't done that. Most weekends I spend hopping from the fridge to the pantry and back again (repeat for 8 hours). This morning I had one (YES ONE!) piece of toast with cottage cheese for breakfast, then for lunch a salmon salad sandwich (YES AGAIN ONLY ONE) with a small diet yoghurt. So i've only had 7 points today. Oops that's not enough is it. D'oh. I'll have some fruit later then. We're having pork stir fry for dinner (no rice cos i'm trying to avoid carbs after 3pm).

Last night we had fresh salmon fillets that I bought at the fish co-op yesterday. Yummo, they were great. The scales have finally started moving in a downwards direction so i'm happy with that. Hopefully next week when I weigh in (also the start of the GTG Challenge) i'll be a bit less than the last time I weighed in at WW (two weeks ago - I was 79.2 and I didn't go this week cos I KNOW I would have gone back over the 80kg mark and I would have been devastated). So i've been quite good this week and i'm hoping for a loss. Fingers crossed.

I really want to lose 8kg before my birthday (end of October). That means I have to lose 0.75 a week, which is do-able but i'll have to be strict on myself and try to start some exercise. Then I would be in the 60's (albeit probably 69.9) and I would be exstatic about that. I sort of remember how good it feels to be losing weight but it's so long since the scales went minus instead of plus, i've kind of forgotten. I got myself into a really bad rutt and just couldn't seem to get out of it. Now that we've started this Get to Goal Challenge i'm feeling a little remotivated and i'm hoping for great results over the next six weeks.

I need to do something about my baby belly. I asked one of my friends about doing sit ups but she said "you have to lose the fat first" so I guess i'm not ready yet! Also in the last month or so a couple of people have commented on me being pregnant (i'm not) and that has made me feel really bad. One was at my grannie's funeral. A lady I haven't seen for years patted my belly and said "is this the next one, or is that just you". Then when I went and got my back fixed at the chiropractor's, he said to me "no charge for pregnant women". It's so devastating to hear, I just wanted to shrink into a corner and die, but ... that's the old me and the new me just laughed it off and i'm trying to tell myself that if people I don't know think that i'm pregnant then there's obviously a problem that I need to fix (ie my baby belly). So, if anyone has any suggestions, apart from what i'm already doing, I would love to hear them.

I figure it's not much use starting sit ups yet, as my girlfriend said "you have to get rid of the fat first" so i'll just keep at the losing weight thing for a while yet and hopefully the "muffin top" will shrink and then i'll start some serious sit ups and stuff. I have noticed that when i'm feeling skinnier my belly is flatter and when i'm bloated it's bigger so hopefully losing more weight will help.

Anyway, I better go and do some more housework before the baby wakes up.

Have a great weekend everyone.
lots of love,
Briony

Time is going so fast

I guess that's what happens when you're busy. I just don't have time to scratch myself these days. Work is flat out (there's two of us doing the work of four) and my house is a pig sty. Oh well, I guess i'll try and find time to clean up at the weekend.

Some of the Ozgeek girls are starting a Getting to Goal Challenge. I'm keen to start as I need someone to be accountable to. I've been the same weight for about three months now and i'm upset with myself cos I could have been so much closer to goal if only I hadn't slacked off.

Oh well, starting now i'm trying to be good. Have been good for two days so far. I begged DH to go and get me an ice cream last night and he said "no". God love him. I was cranky with him and he still said "no". I'm thanking him today.

I'm just keen to see the scales going in a downward motion again, I felt so good when I was losing weight, I just have to stop eating.

There's only crap on TV tonight, I didn't go to band practice cos i'm tired so I had best toddle off to bed now. The little one is asleep. As you can see I have posted a new photo taken on the weekend. We were outside on the grass, he just loves it out there.

Hope everyone is well and doing better than me.

lots of love,
Bri

Holy crap

I thought I updated my blog, but obviously I didn't. I can't believe I haven't written anything since Saturday?????

Didn't weigh in cos I know i've put on.

Very unhappy. Very busy at work, don't really have time for this, shit there goes the phone again. Will hopefully update tonight.

Bri

Someone shoot me, please???????

I know I SAID I was having a WW meal, but my resolve weakened when I smelt the cheesy goodness of the sweet chilli chicken pizza.

D'oh .............

Oh boy what a week

I don't think i've EVER been so busy as I have this week. There used to be four girls in the office, but two of them resigned in the last week and so there's only two of us left in the office and the other girl has only been there 3 weeks! Thankfully she's more than competant and we're coping, but damn it's been busy.
So, i've been going ok with my eating considering the pressure i'm under. But no exercise yet. We're going shopping tomorrow so i'll get some walking in, probably a couple of hours worth, and I want to weed the garden tomorrow too so that's more exercise.
Tonight my step-daughter is here to visit so her and DH are having pizza but I brought home the WW meal I didn't eat at work so i'll have that.
Sorry I haven't been keeping up with my blog, i've been reading your blogs and keeping up with you, just haven't had time to reply or write in mine.
Hopefully i'll have some time tomorrow to write entries, but I did bring home a heap of reports to type..........ho hum ............
Have a great weekend everyone!
Bri

WTF??

I put on 100 gms, WTF? I've been really good this week, except for that goddamned Beavertail, surely ONE thing couldn't make me gain 100g and not have a lose??? Bugger, damn, hell and shit.

The only explanation I can find, is the love that i've found (oops sorry, sidetracked)....
TTOTM. and that's all i'm saying.

Bri

So many choices!

Well, what to do today. I'm not hungover so I have a lot of choices.

1. Start the new Harry Potter book

2. Go shopping (haven't got much money left)

3. More housework (tut, tut, I think i've done enough for one weekend!)

4. Start the new Harry Potter book

5. Start the new Harry Potter book

Think I might go for ...... mmmhmmm let's see??????

NUMBER ONE!! yayayayayayay

Last night was ok. DH and the baby ended up dropping me off and coming home cos the baby was out of sorts and chucking a hissy fit. I stayed for a bit over 2 hours, drank a bottle of Fresita (mmhmm my favourite), played some darts (kicked butt!) and got home at about 10.45pm. Not too bad if I do say so myself.

There was heaps of yummy food at the party but I only let myself have a tiny bit cos I was trying to be good, except for the champagne of course. hehe

I got a compliment about my hair, yes I did go with the curls, so that made me feel good. Everyone there was under 25 so I kind of did feel a little out of place, but i'm glad I went and i'm proud of myself for not overeating and coming home at a very reasonable time.

I'm thinking of changing WW groups. I don't really like the new leader we've got, she's a little painful to say the least so I might look on the website for a new meeting. Monday's are usually ok for us but a meeting that was a bit later might be better for me. Actually i'd really like an early morning meeting as you weigh less but I guess it would only impact on my figures the first time.

Will keep you posted about that. Hope everyone else's weekend is going well.
Ciao for now,
Bri

Another weekend

Except there's no MIL, so i'm doing it solo. Have to go to a party tonight, haven't been to a party for a long time, thought I might even put the hot rollers in my hair, although it's probably a waste of time, we don't have a babysitter so we won't be there long.
Have to do heaps of housework today and try and find something to wear, guess it might be cold outside so whatever I wear will be covered up anyway.
I've turned into a complainer today!! haha
Don't know whether I said but my baby is walking now. He's sooo cute. I just love watching him tottering around, and he sooo proud of himself too.
Best go and do some stuff, i'll try and get back later for an update.
I'm also hoping to get out and buy the new Harry Potter book today. I read the last one in 3 days but I have a baby now so I doubt it will take me less than a couple of months! hehe

Have a great day everyone
Bri

OMG

I just ate a Beavertail. Don't know what that is?
Well, let me tell you, its a scrumdidlyumptious concotion of Canadian invention. Flat fried butter sugar and cinnamon slathered donut type pastry.

mmmmmhmmmm donuts..........................

oOoOoOoOoOoOopps

I was tagged.....

Three names I go by:
1. Briony
2. Mummy
3. Bri
Three screen names I've had
1. Briony
2. BrionyP
3. FatCow
Three physical things I like about myself:
1. Eyes
2. Pre-baby boobs
3. Hair (except for the gray ones!)
Three physical things I don't like about myself:
1. My muffin top baby belly
2. Flabby bowling lady arms
3. Cellulite
Three parts of my heritage:
1. English
2. Scottish
3. Welsh
Three things I am wearing right now:
1. Work clothes
2. Cheap boots
3. Grannie’s bracelet
Three favorite bands/musical artists:(at the moment)
1. Robbie Williams
2. Gwen Stefani
3. Jack Johnson
Three favorite songs:(at the moment)
1. Switch – Will Smith
2. Hollaback Girl – Gwen Stefani
3. I Got – Fast Crew
Three things I want in a relationship:
1. The “spark”
2. Respect
3. Humour
Two truths and a lie
1. I love my job
2. I wish I was a famous jazz singer
3. I have never been unfaithful
Three physical things about the preferred sex that appeal to you:
1. Dark hair
2. Tall
3. Strong features
Three favorite hobbies:
1. Reading
2. Listening to music
3. Cooking
Three Things I want to do badly right now:
1. Lose 15kg
2. Stick with my motivation
3. Run away
Three things that scare me:
1. Spiders
2. Needles
3. Sexual attraction
Three of my everyday essentials:
1. Oxygen
2. Pepsi Max
3. Hugs from my little boy
Three Careers you have considered or are considering:
1. Chef
2. Singer in a band
3. Office manager
Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Europe
2. Around Australia in a lavishly decked out bus
3. The Maldives
Three kids names you like:
1. Lachlan
2. Mackenzie
3. Jack
Three things you want to do before you die:
1. Sing in front of a huge audience
2. Get on better with my parents
3. Be comfortable with who I am
Three ways I am stereotypically a boy:
1. Drinking
2. Smoking (not anymore)
3. Playing cards
Three ways I am stereotypically a girl:1.
Champagne
2. Love nice underwear
3. Love being given jewellery, perfume and flowers (or should that be WOULD LOVE TO BE GIVEN)
Three celeb crushes: -
1. Robbie Williams
2. Colin Firth
3. Richard Gere (I know but I’m nearly 40 so it’s ok)

Now I get to tag 3 people, but all my blog friends have been tagged so I’ll just leave it at that!!

Hump day

Well it's hump day and i've been good so far, I know it's only a couple of days, but hey it's better than my form over the last couple of months.

Got my pilates DVD delivered this morning (plus four full seasons of the Simpsons DVD box sets!!) so i'm keen to give the pilates a go, but not tonight as i'm actually going to band practice for the first time in about two months.

Maybe tomorrow night before "Lost" or more likely not til the weekend I guess.
Anyhoo, i'll keep you posted about that!

Have a great day everyone (or "no-one" if this isn't being read!! hahahahaha).

Bri

Weigh in day!

I lost 0.4 this week, yay. I didn't think I would lose because of Saturday night (Pizza and a skinful) and Sunday (McD's). So i'm stoked.

I found out today that two of my blogger friends are meeting up in Brisbane, I soooo wish I could go too. Those two girls have been a huge inspiration and comfort to me during this journey.

Anyhoo, i'm sure we'll all meet one day.

Now I just need to lose another 0.9 and i'll be back where I was at my lowest. THEN another 0.3 after that and i'll get another WW bookmark (for officially 10kg).

So 1.2kg down from here and i'll be 15 kg lighter than on 1 January this year, which also means i'm halfway on my weight loss journey I think as I had 30 kg to lose.

On another note, we got a new WW leader this week, our old one left. I don't like this one so much, plus she looked a little chubby in the suit she had on, I think she needs to practice what she preaches. It looked like if she sat down she's split her pants!

Bri

aw crappoli

I forgot to stop at Coles and buy myself a WW meal for lunch. There are 3 cars parked behind me and so I can't really get my car out.

Crappoli..............

:0(

Sorry everyone .....

Sorry everyone for these horrific photos you're about to see, I thought it might re-motivate me. I'll keep you posted as to that.

Think i'll go and take a nap now, DH should be home from the footy soon and then I have to go and do the groceries. A woman's work is never done ........... that's if he's sober enough to look after the baby?????

Hope everyone had a great weekend.

Bri

Half way photos. OMG my gut is only a tiny bit smaller than my boobs. Might have to seriously consider a boob job and what's going on with my chin? Do I even have one? Yikes. I do obviously look thinner though. I'll be a lot happier once i've lost 20kg. I think it will make a big difference. 5kg to go, better pull my finger out.  

OK this is on 22 May 2005. I was down to 78.2 (my lowest weight this year). I thought I looked pretty good but the photos don't look that impressive now that I look back at them? Oh well, long way to go yet. These are actually my half way photos. Now I just need to get back there (current weight 79.5kg). 

Pass out the buckets!

I've decided to share my "before " photos. I've been having a look at other people's blogs and I reckon the people who share their "before" photos are really brave, so i'm going to do it too. Maybe it will keep me honest?
Sorry if they make anyone sick! I'm feeling dreadfully ill looking at them myself. Get me a bucket.
These were taken on the 10th of January this year. I had already lost 4 kg and was sitting on 89kg at this time.
Bri

Lordy, look at those flabby knees. 

This is really bad. This is the photo I should have for motivation, my gut is bigger than my boobs for goodness sake. Yikesee, I feel ill just looking at these photos. 

Yuckkkkkkkkkkkkk

OMFG, no-one ever looks happy in their before shots do they? Yikes.

Too fast

The weekend went too fast. MIL has gone home. DH is at the football. Baby is sleeping.
Drank too much last night and had Pizza for tea. Had McD's for lunch today. Thought I had my motivation back but alas, think i've lost it again. It's hard on weekends.
I'm very tired. Baby woke up 8 times last night and DH didn't get up once, don't think he heard him. Too many beers.
Just want to sleep. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I love weekends.....

especially when my MIL is coming to visit. She makes my life SOOO much easier. She's the best MIL in the universe.

Have to go and have my back "fixed" this morning, then do some grocery shopping and then we're going out tonight with another couple (MIL is babysitting!). Should be a good night. I'm thinking about buying that new Trivia DVD game as it looks like a lot of fun, especially after a few vinos!

Yesterday was good but very tiring. I was awake from 4am with the baby. I drove down to Sydney with two pick ups on the way at 9am, got there at 11.45am. Lunch was good, the entertainment was Vince Sorrenti, funniest guy ever, he was absolutely hilarious! Drove back at 4pm, took a wrong turn and ended up going into the city (D'oh) which added probably 10 mins to the trip but then we got stuck in the Friday afternoon GTFOOH traffic and didn't end up getting home til nearly 8pm. I was very tired. Had a glass of red and KFC (oops there goes my good week) and crashed.

Got a sleep in this morning (7am) and now have to rush around tidying up before MIL gets here cos the house is a bit of a mess. So I better go and do that and i'll chat with you all later if you're lucky.

Oooooooh, might have to buy something new to wear out tonight! hehehehehehehehe

Have a great Saturday everyone,
Bri

Yay for me!!

Well, i've been really good for three days now and its already starting to show on the scales, yay me!! I know I shouldn't be weighing myself every day but I can't help it.

Go Briony .....
Go Briony .....
Go Briony .....

hehe

Also I got my company car this week (another yay for me) it's L-U-V-E-R-L-Y!!

..... and i'm going to a flash lunch at the Royal Sydney Yacht Club tomorrow ($125 a head), but I can't drink cos I have to drive, well that's probably a good thing cos you know what i'm like once I start with the vino !! I was good last night though and only had two drinks, but I was in bed by 9pm. I'm trying to read the Harry Potter books to catch up before the next book comes out but I keep falling asleep. I'll have to try and read some more this weekend, I think its only a week til the next one comes out now!! I can't wait! yay

Anyway, best go and do some work now. Chat with you later, have a great day everyone.
Bri

Crapanddammittohell

I put on 0.7, so i'm back to 79.5 (at least I didn't go over 80kg!!).

I so have to put this right RIGHT NOW.

No more #ucking around, as of tonight i'm back to being good and NO EXCUSES.
No more Miss Hoover for me. I could have been at 60-something by now if i'd just stayed motivated. I'm back at the weight I was two months ago.

DAMMITTOHELL

I'm so angry with myself and dirty on myself, why why why.

Ok, regroup......

I will...... be good as of tomorrow
I will...... track everything I eat
I will...... drink more water

I won't ..... let the girls at work con me into eating shit
I won't ..... put shit on myself and do that "may aswell eat crap i'm a fat ugly pig" thing
I won't ..... let you all down and give up on myself

I can do this, i'll do it for me and I know i'll feel much better about myself.

I could be at goal by Christmas if I just put myself first and stop shovelling crap into my mouth.

Mini goal: To be 75 kg by the end of July (I have to lose 4.5 kg in 4 weeks - tough but I could do it if i'm really good). Will keep you posted.

Wish me luck ....................

Bri

I hate Mondays

At least i'm back at work and I don't have the cupboards and fridge to contend with. I just had a WW frozen meal for lunch (Chick pea curry). I ate a few chicken cracker biscuits for morning tea which was bad but at least I stopped myself after a few, whereas if I was at home I would have eaten the whole box.

I'm going to weigh in tonight. I didn't go last week cos of Grannie's funeral. I hope I haven't gained too much. I have been eating such crap in the last two weeks. Any excuse and i'm hoovering up all kinds of salty, fatty, sugary treats - plus the drinkies! Put anything bad in front of me and it will be gone instantaneously. Yikes, really need to get back on track, that's about the 7685th time i've said that, I must sound like a broken record.

Motivation .................. where are you?????????????????

Weekends are the worst

I know I shouldn't be complaining, but how easy is it to sit around and pig out on weekends? Especially when someone brings home a box of Pods cos he thinks i'm feeling upset and that will cheer me up! Sabotaged again. They were'nt even all that nice, but yes (D'oh) I ate the whole box while he was out at the football.

Now i'm just thinking "well I ate them I may aswell just keep pigging out and start again tomorrow" cos it's so much easier to be good when i'm at work.

I've been stable with my weight for about two months now, I could have been in the 60's by now if i'd been good. Maybe i'm sabotaging myself. Yikes.

I really want to get back on track, I wish the weather was warmer I always eat less in summer, plus how easy is it to eat salad in hotter weather? It doesn't help that i'm feeling hopeless, unloved, overworked, unappreciated, bogged down, tired, fat, ugly and useless. Sometimes I just feel like I want to pack my bags and leave it all behind.

I had such great motivation before, where did it go? I'm now basically at the weight I was before I got pregnant and i've not really been lower than this weight for about 10 years. I'm wondering whether i'm too scared to go any lower, I just can't work out why. I really want to be healthy and slim. A friend of mine gave me a huge bag of size 14 and 12 clothes, that's my next goal then isn't it? to get into them. So I need to lose about another 6 or so kilos (into the 60's) and i'll be able to wear all this stuff she has given me.

I've said this before, but I think i'll go back to WW week one menu and start again. I haven't tracked for ages (what's the use when i'm just eating crap anyway) but if I go back to week one then maybe i'll get back on track. We have a freezer full of healthy food but I keep pigging out. I don't think i've put any weight on since a fortnight ago when I weighed in (78.8kg) so that's ok, but I really need to pull my finger out and get back on track, I really want to be in the 60's by my birthday (end of October) so that's no too unrealistic is it? About half a kilo a week and i'll be there.

Come on Briony, get with the programme and just do it. Maybe I should take up smoking again (yes, I know how stupid a comment that is!!) but at least it would stop me eating.

Ho hum . . . . .

Bri