Jazz up your life!

Jazz in the Vines. What a great day, we're definitely going back next year, but we'll probably organise somewhere to stay up there and a bus drop off and pick up. The music was great. We took our own food (chicken, rolls, fruit, cheese and biscuits) and bought "a few" bottles of wine. The weather was perfect, no sunburn for this little white lilly skinned human (yay).

We saw Monica Trapaga, Bruce Mathiske and James Morrison with Emma Pask singing. Brilliant, absolutely brilliant. Can't wait til next year.....

Geez there will be some crook people today though, we got there at about 1pm and there were already people walking around looking very very sunburnt and very very pissed (sometimes they were the same people!). It started at 11am but I reckon some people would have got there early to set up. When we got there we had to walk around for a while to find a good pozzie to sit in so that we could see the stage, albeit everyone on the stage looked like ants. Nevertheless, it was a fantastic day and we had a ball.

..... and now it is Sunday again, don't they come around fast, must go and do some housework.

Bri

Friday weigh in.....

I was really worried about my weigh in today, but I stayed the same, which I’m pretty happy about. It’s certainly better than gaining. Now if I can just be a bit good this weekend I’ll definitely lose next week cos I have kicked butt on my steps this week.


Monday: 10,167
Tuesday: 10,264
Wednesday: 10,071
Thursday: 12,626
Friday: 5145 and counting

AND I’m in the top 50 walkers on WWA! Woo hoo, go girl go!!


For those of you who were wondering about the “Buzz” game I bought (and NO it doesn’t have anything to do with Buzz Lightyear!! Haha “M”) here is a link: http://www.au.playstation.com/ps2/games/b/buzztmq.jhtml

It’s a music trivia game, with real buzzers. DH and I played last night, it was so much fun. I’m looking forward to kicking his arse again tonight (yes I won both games we played last night). Hehe

I highly recommend it.

Have a great weekend everyone, I know I will.
Bri

Ho hum - nothing to report really

Don’t have anything to report today. The scales are just about back to where I was last Friday so that’s good. I don’t think i'll register a loss but at least I’ll be the same.

Saturday will be the problem. We’re going to Jazz in the Vines (ie read great music, great wine, great food). We will take our own food, just a few biscuits and some nice cheese and fruit etc, and I’m sure we’ll be doing heaps of waking (at least to the portaloos and back! haha) I will try and compensate by being very good tomorrow and on Sunday. I have exercised my butt off this week and that should help too.

Oh, here’s some exciting news – the new PS2 game “Buzz” came out today and I was one of the first in the queue to buy it! Yay for me, had to elbow a few little kids and stuff out of the way but I wore my big spikey stilettos so it was a pretty easy job. They can really cause some damage.

I got the first one out of the carton (they hadn’t even opened it when I got there!).

Yihar, roll on Sunday – it will be a big “Buzz” day at my house!
Bri

Wednesday is hump day!!

30 days to go til my personal challenge is over. Doesn't time fly???

The scales are not my friends this week and I think I may have to post a gain on Friday morning. I guess it’s ok cos I did have my birthday last week and I over indulged a little.

See, that’s the thing, I only overindulged a little. I was really good compared to my old self who would have eaten and drunk everything in sight. It wasn’t even hard, which is great because that means that I have changed my lifestyle for the better and for the long term.

And even though I put on a little bit (maybe half a kilo) I am very very proud of myself. Like I said yesterday I think TTOTM is near so that could be another reason for the slight gain too.

Now if I can just do the same on Saturday at Jazz in the Vines I will be ecstatic!!

Got over another 10,000 steps yesterday, yay me! Couldn’t do quite as long on the treadmill this morning as DH had an early meeting but I’m going to keep my promise that if I don’t get 10,000 steps I’ll get on the treadmill tonight and make sure I do. I was only about 5 minutes short of what I normally do so there shouldn’t be too much to make up anyway.

Have a great day everyone, it’s hump day after all!!

Bri

How can motivation be so fickle?

My motivation is so all over the place at the moment. Yesterday I was super motivated and thinking that possibly I could transform myself into a 60’s girl by Christmas. Pffft, what a bloody joke.

Today I feel so hungry it’s not funny and I just can’t see myself going without stuffing my face today. Maybe TTOTM is just around the corner – actually I think it might be, some investigation to be done here. (*looks in old posts to find out when the last one was*) Yep, it is – or should be anyway, I’m so all over the place since I had the baby I never know when my “friends” will arrive. That explains it then, at least I know why I’m craving food, not necessarily sweet food, just anything at the moment.

I got over my 10,000 steps yesterday, yay for me and I’m on track for doing the same today. DH got up at 4.30am and went for a walk this morning – good for him!! I feel really fantastic after I’ve finished my treadmill walking, cos I know that my previous lazy fat arsed self would have given up on that by now, but my new self is really enjoying the exercise and the feeling of complete joy when I finish doing my half hour stint. Especially as I’m increasing my distance all the time. Yay for me!!

Have a great day everyoneBri

Come Monday it'll be alright

In the words of the famous and talented Jimmy Buffett (Come Monday it'll be alright) ..... except it probably won't. I was a lot heavier on my scales this morning so I think i'll be registering a gain tonight. I'm actually over going to WW meetings and i'm seriously considering just doing it at home myself. I have five paid weeks left and then i'll make the decision.

Especially if, as rumour has it, WW are changing from the "Points" system - which I think is just a money making exercise for them and i'm kind of annoyed about it.

I can't stay for the meetings anymore cos DH doesn't make it in time to meet me and it's not fair on DS to take him in there and keep him quiet for 30 mins when he's been away from me all day.

I know that with treadmilling every morning and doing my two walks a day i'll be fine by Friday and will hopefully have another loss, not as big as last week's but a loss nonetheless.

Anyway, goals for this week:

Treadmill every morning - at least 30 mins
Walk to mail and banking every day
No bad eating
2 litres of water every day
If I don't make it to 10,000 steps by the end of the day, more treadmilling until I get there

Loss required of 2.9 in 5 weeks to make it to 73kg by the time we go away for my work Christmas do, I think this is achievable (I know I said this last week but i'm going to keep posting it as a reminder to myself).

I really wanted to be a 60's girl by Christmas but with all the functions I don't think it will happen. I would need to lose 6 kilos in 9 weeks, which would be achievable under normal circumstances if I was really really good, but there's no way it will happen. I will just be happy to say i've lost 20 kilos this year, what an achievement - if you'd asked me this time last year if I could do that, I would have said "no way".

Actually, now i'm thinking maybe I should give it a go to really get there, what a great Christmas present to myself! Food for thought - why is it always about food??????? hahaha

Have a great week everyone, i'm going to try and digest what i've just written and see how I can help myself along to get as close to the 60's as I can by Christmas. Where has this positive person come from?????

Edit:
I have decided to change my goal weight back to 63 kilos.
If and when I get there, then i'll decide if I want to go further.
58.5 is probably a bit unrealistic but I won't know until I get closer
to the low sixties, so i'll re-evaluate WHEN I get there! (that's better).
I already feel more motivated.
Bri


Bri

The tag

I wasn’t tagged but saw this on M’s blog (can anyone tell me how to put a link in here??) and decided to tag myself cos I thought it would be fun:

The rules are:

1. Go into your archives.

2. Find your 23rd post.

3. Find the fifth sentence (or the closest one to it)

4. Post the text of your sentence in your blog along with these rules.

5. Tag five other people.

This is what I had posted:

”Drank too much last night and had Pizza for tea”.

God, why did it have to be this one, why couldn’t it have been one of my funny lines, or at least one of my self help moments???

Crap, crap, crap…

I won’t tag anyone else either, but if you want to tag yourself, feel free.

This is from my wonderful friend Michelle, I sure was spoilt this year, i'm so lucky to have such fantastic friends and how true is the saying, friends are definitely the most important thing in my life, that's for sure! 

No explanation required here. Yummo!! I only had one tiny tiny piece. There's some left in the fridge but I promise you i'm being good and not having any. 

These ones are from my Mum and her partner. They're gorgeous aren't they? I'm so spoilt. 

Flowers from my beautiful friends Lisa and Kate.

Flowers from my gorgeous friend Sue (the poo)! hehe 

This is one of the presents from the people at work. She's a key chain. Her name is "Dee Dee"!! She's a bad taste bear (see badtastebears.com.au). I think she's great!!

The morning after the night before!

I feel great today, a little tired, went to bed at about 1am after playing Eye toy and Singstar - hehe. It was hilarious, and considering I had been awake since 5am I did pretty well.
I might have to have an afternoon nap today though! That's if DS does, he's asleep now so he may have a big sleep this morning and not have one this afternoon. He was up late too!

I didn't get to read any blogs yesterday so that's what i'll be doing shortly, hopefully.

In the meantime i'll try and put some photos in here that were taken last night.

Have a great day everyone, I know I will!

Bri

Go Briony, it's your birthday, gonna party like it's your birthday

Yay, it's my birthday!! Happy Birthday to me. My mum and her partner are coming for lunch so i'm madly trying to tidy the house up (well, not RIGHT now cos i'm on here writing to you!! hehe). Then tonight we're having a couple of people over for a BBQ. It's a beautiful day and i'm soooo happy!

I didn't even get on the scales this morning cos it doesn't matter today!

I just want to publicly say "thanks" to my dear friend Chelle for sending me such a thoughtful birthday gift. You're the best Chelle!!

Hope everyone has as good a day as i'm going to have - bring on the champers!! hehe

Bri

Yes!!!

Yay, the scales have been very kind to me this morning. Down 1.2 kilos - yep you read correctly ONE POINT TWO!!

Yihar! I feel soooo good, now best not ruin it tomorrow by eating too much birthday cake and drinking too much champagne.

DH left to go to his Mums, 2 hours away, at 4am and i've been awake since 3am. I did my usual 30 mins on the treadmill and i'm just waiting for DS to wake up. I guess it will be an early night cos i'm going to be tired later, but I have to clean my house cos we're having a few people over for a BBQ tomorrow night. DH said he'll help .......... and I say "he bloody well better"!!!! haha

So now here are my mini goals revised from yesterday:

To be under 75kg by 11 November - 0.9 to go in 4 weeks

To be under 73 by Christmas - 2.9 to go in 9 weeks.

- Completely manageable, even with all the functions taken into consideration.

Have a great day everyone!

Bri

Can I resist temptation?

I have so many functions to attend in the near future it’s not funny. My birthday, Jazz in the Vines, two weddings, a hens day at the races, Melbourne Cup day, my Christmas party and that’s just for starters.

It’s going to be really hard to lose any weight in November that’s for sure!! But I’m not going to let that stop me!

I will be ecstatically happy though, to have lost 20kg by Christmas so I need to keep up this walking parlaver (?sp) cos I really believe its making a huge difference. Well, it has to doesn’t it?
I have attained my goal of getting 10,000 steps a day for the last 2 days in a row – yay me. I know that isn’t much compared to what some people are doing but considering my average steps a day a couple of weeks ago were around 3000 I’m doing very well, if I do say so myself!!

I’ve also been really good with my eating this week and have kept under my points every day. So I’m hoping for some kind of reward from the scales when I hop on them tomorrow morning. Wish me luck!!

Realistic mini goals:

Be 75 or under by 25 November – 2.1 kilos to go in 4 weeks (depending on tomorrow’s results)

Be 73 or under by Christmas – 4.1 kilos to go in 9 weeks

These goals, I think are very realistic – it only means an average of 0.5 a week or less, so I think I can do this, I just have to keep on my own back (feel free to join me) so that I can get there.

Bri

A work in progress

I've been thinking about this whole weight loss thing. When don't I ??? There are no 'quick fixes' and if you're not prepared to put in the hard yards you're not going to get the results you want. It's all very well to watch these weight loss shows where they lose 10 kg in a week, but we all know that's just not realistic.

WW says you should realistically be able to lose 0.5 to 1kg a week and if you did that every week for a year you'd lose 26 to 52 kg - hmmmmhmm, food for thought (so to speak).

I've been on this journey now for 41 weeks and i've lost 16 kilos - pitiful effort really. BUT ..... (hang on before you all blow up at me!! hear me out) i'm so much healthier and fitter than I was at the beginning of my journey. I have been stuffing around for the last 6 months and have been about the same weight in that time, give or take a kilo here and there, but I feel like i'm back on track now and i'm ready for the next step (yes, it's the exercise bit).

Other benefits:

Going from a size 18 to a size 14

Being able to sit on the floor and get up without huffing and puffing and having to roll around like a beached whale.

Being able to run around with Lachie and not have to sit down cos i'm too tired

Feeling better about myself and not hiding away on weekends cos i'm a fat cow and no-one loves me

Loser clothing (edit, I mean looser - I can't believe no-one picked me up on this, oh well i'm sure Kellee (aka the Grammar Police) would have!! *LOL to Kellee*)

Realising that warm weather is not my enemy

Making healthy choices

Not needing to have to pig out to make myself feel better and realising that it actually makes me feel worse!

I really would rather take this journey slowly, it's not so much of a change then. Last Christmas (I gave you my heart .... sorry got sidetracked! haha) I made myself a promise that there's no way I would be the same "Porker Girl" for the next Christmas and i'm not going to be. I will have definitely lost at least 20kg by this Christmas and i'm so proud of that.

So, my next project is to increase my exercise. I'm so lazy it's not funny and i'll find any excuse to sit on my butt and do nothing (or blog!!). I spend a lot of time at the computer, not only at work but at home aswell and that's ok in winter, but not now that the weather is warming up and it's getting lighter at night too.

My plan for between now and Christmas is to increase my walking to 10,000 plus steps a day. I have the treadmill now so there's no excuses. At the moment i'm doing about 8,000 steps a day which includes 30 mins on the treadmill in the morning, walking to get the mail - 10 mins and walking to do the banking - 20 mins. That equals an hour a day so i'm guessing i'll have to do about another 20 mins to get my goal of 10,000 a day and then eventually make it 30 mins to get over the 10,000 a day.

Once that's on track I need to get over my fruit phobia, but I can't talk about that now, that's WAY too scarey a thought, but then losing weight and exercising were scarey thoughts too not that long ago.

Crikey, who knows - I might even get to be a fit and healthy person at some stage in the future!!

Have a great day everyone, thanks for reading my blog, I hope i'm inspiring others or at least keeping you amused while you're here!!

Bri

By the way, i'm going to try and change the title of my blog - just thought it needed a spring clean! Wish me luck - i'm not very good at this technical stuff!

Monday weigh in

Weight Watchers Weigh in

I lost 0.4 this week. Current WW weight now 77.4

Bri

Ouch my head .....

You’ll be pleased to know that I didn’t eat much at the party. BUT I did have half a mini sausage roll, and half a party pie, shared them with Lachie. Other than that I had one bread roll and half a sausage.

The big problem was the three bottles of wine I helped consume. Ouch my head!!

Naughty, naughty, naughty.

I’m regretting it today though don’t worry…… but I’m not going to be stupid enough to say I won’t do it again. Needless to say there was no walking on the treadmill for this little black duck this morning!

I have to apologise to my friend Michelle too for harrassing her when I was a bit too tipsy! (Sorry Michelle, i''m a bad girl!!). Legend that Michelle is though, she took it all in her stride and interpreted my very very bad typing and then was nice enough to ring me up and have a chat. How cool is that!!

Weigh in tonight at WW will be amusing, I was lighter again on the scales this morning so I’m hoping for a loss. I’ll let you know I guess.

Hope my head gets better soon, especially considering I can’t have anything that I would like to eat (insert list of greasy, carb loaded foods of choice here and add a bottle of coke!!). In fact I haven't eaten yet today at all.

On a good note, I’ve noticed that my rings are getting really loose but I don’t think I should have them made smaller yet cos I’m only half way on my weight loss journey, I might just move the ones I can to bigger fingers. My wedding ones are ok cos there’s three of them and they take up more room. The whole ring sliding thing is annoying but also good cos it helps me to remember how good I’ve been (well not yesterday but you know what I mean, right?) ha ha ha ha ha

Hope you all had a great weekend. I’ll get back to you after WW to let you know how my weight is progressing. Wish me luck……

Bri

Decisions, decisions

Today, Lachie and I are going to my girlfriend's daughter's 4th birthday party, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEMMA, the dilemma is - what to wear? Or what not to wear as the case may be.

Hmmhmmmm..... Where are Trinny and Susannah when I need them?

On another note, when I got on the scales this morning (yes i'm still getting on them every day) I was back to 76.4 - so that's unreal (banana peel) and i'm pretty happy with myself today. It's remotivated me to try and make healthy choices at the party today (no fairy bread for me!!). Actually it's more the party pies and sausage rolls i'm worried about.

So this means, hopefully that i'll have a good loss next week and hopefully a loss at tomorrow night's WW weigh in. Fingers crossed.

So, back to what to wear. The weather is really strange, looks like it's going to rain (cat and dogs) but it's not cold. I guess if this is the biggest dilemma in my life today then i'm not doing too badly at all.

Just want to say good luck to all the Bloggers in Joggers who are participating in the walk today. Hope you have plenty of fun mixed in with the walking and talking I know you'll all be doing. I'll be with you in spirit (champagne probably!!).

Happy Sunday everyone!
Bri

Family day

Saturday at our house is family day. It's the only day DH gets off (at the moment) so we usually have plenty to do. Today we have to go shopping and buy two lots of wedding presents, a birthday present for my friend's daughter who's having a party tomorrow AND we have to look for MY birthday present. Not long now til the countdown to 40 starts - sheizer!!

I'm a bit scared to tell you the truth, I can't believe how fast this year has gone and if the next one goes as fast i'll be 40 before I know it and i'll be writing in here "doesn't seem like that long since we started the countdown, does it?"

Yikes.

39 is bad enough (well I can only assume, i'll let you know next week!).

My DH (today its darling husband) has organised tickets to Jazz in the Vines for us (www.jazzinthevines.com.au) . It's on 29th October. My mother is coming to babysit. It's on from 11am to 6pm so i'm sure to get very badly sunburnt, especially with my pale scottish skin, best see what i've got to wear so that I can cover up. I have a hat, of sorts, not sure I like it. I bought it in a rush, I needed a hat for going to the football a couple of years ago and the only one I could find was a straw cowgirl kind of hat made by Roxy, tres expensive, and I think i've only worn it twice so I'd best get another wear out of it. Hope it's not all squashed up in the top of the cupboard!

I'm making a lamb roast for tea, we haven't had a baked dinner for ages so DH said it would be a nice idea. I'll have to try and WW it so that it's a bit healthier than normal, spray oil here we come!

Anyway, have to go and get started now, I wanted to be at the shops by this time but - hey- that's the unpredictable life I have now!!

Have a great day everyone.

Bri

Bugger

Gained 0.6.

I know why, those couple of weeks have caught up to me (see previous entries for sordid details!).

I have to continue being good and I should have a big loss next week. I was really depressed this morning and had cheese on toast for breakfast cos I "couldn't give a damn" but i'm ok now. I only had two pieces (in the old days I would have had at least 4) so I haven't done too much damage. I'll count it into my tracking and just be good for the rest of the day. Deep down I know that even though i've been super good this week and resisted all temptations thrown in my path, AND i've walked on the treadmill every day (not today - more on that later) my previous "badness" has caught up with me. I also know that I can't give up, I have to keep going and i'll get there eventually.

I'm ok, don't worry about me, i've got it sorted out in my head and i'm back on track now.

TGIF !!

Have a great day everyone.

Bri

Miscalculation

OK so i'm not having dinner, i'm having an early night cos i'm absolutely stuffed. So further to my earlier post where I said i'd overeaten, I have in fact only had 15.5 points cos i'm missing dinner. But that's ok, i'm too tired to be bothered and I think I need the sleep more than the food. I'll be up at 5.30am walking on the treadmill. At least I have music to listen to when i'm walking on the treadmill now (Thanks Chelle!!).

I have the world's biggest headache (stress) and I just can't stand sitting in front of this computer screen tonight.

Good night everyone,

I will post my weight in the morning, I just know i'll have a gain so prepare to be disappointed!

Bri

It's nearly the weekend

How fast has this week gone? It's Friday tomorrow already.

I have been really good all week, i've been on the treadmill EVERY morning for 30 minutes and it's getting easier every day. I'm very proud of myself cos normally by now I would have found an excuse not to do it, and believe me i've had plenty of reasons I could have used, but i've forced myself to do it. Only thing is, now i'm thinking I should still do it on Saturday and Sunday cos if I break my momentum will I then start to make excuses next week?

Have also been really good with my food, until this afternoon. The scales have been going up every day and it's gotten to me. I have my personal challenge weigh in tomorrow morning and i'm going to have a gain - for sure - which shits me to tears, i'm cranky cos i've been really really really good, even bloody well exercising - and no results, in fact negative results - well positive but you know what I mean, right? I know that I need to keep it up, I can hear you all now "don't give up Briony, your body will catch up, you're doing really well" i've heard them all, i've written them all, but when its yourself - it really affects you.

Anyway I haven't been that bad, just had a chicken sandwich which I hadn't planned for so I won't have anything else til dinner (salad) and hopefully if I eat early enough it will be gone by the time I weigh myself in the morning. I sure hope so anyway! This is too depressing.....

Bri

Night out

This photo is from ages ago, when I went out with the people from work. This is (from Right to Left) me, Kat (Bobby27 from Ozgeek) and Sarah. I love these girls!! They're the best, especially cos they help me out at karaoke and don't laugh at me when i'm drunk! haha
Oh and also cos they're the best fun to work with.

Kat and I shared a flat for a while, that was great fun! We shared a lot of stuff (like hangovers!).

Bri

Bloody rain

It's raining, but I still went for my walk to get the mail this morning (good girl!!). Now it's absolutely pouring so i'm lucky I went early, but it's not looking good for the bank run. My pedometer already says 5279 as I did half an hour on the treadmill this morning too (yay!! day three and I haven't broken it yet - the habit - not the treadmill!).

It's killing me getting up at 5.30am though, especially with getting up through the night with DS.

I've been really really good with my food, and i'm even tracking again, honestly tracking not "forgetting" anything! The scales are still going the wrong way, I don't know what's wrong, i'm being soooo good it's not funny and it seems like everything is going against me, i'm not going to give in though, i'm going to win this time.

Only a month til the first wedding I have to go to so i'm determined i'm going to be at least under 75kg by then and hopefully a lot better than that - 73 or lower is what i'm heading for - come on body catch up with the good me and shed those filthy kilos!! I would love to be under 70kg by Christmas.

Had to fight with DS all morning, he woke up an hour later than normal and he just wasn't in "go" mode, but I had to get out and get to work. He kept rolling over on the change table and didn't want his nappy changed. Then 10 minutes later he dirtied his nappy just as I was about to go out the door (isn't that always the way) and THEN he put his hands in "it" and I had to just about bath him. When I finally got him into the car he did that stiff as a board thing when I was trying to get him into the car seat and I had to basically push him into the seat.

Of course then I got the guilts cos I felt like i'd been mean to him and I had a few tears in the car on the way to work.

Motherhood - the hardest vocation on the planet.

Bri

Not so bad...

I gained 0.2 - so that's not so bad, considering what i've stuffed down my throat in the last couple of weeks.

Tomorrow is another day and day four of being on track, and YES I am tracking.

No need to change my ticker as that is my Friday weight, my WW weight doesn't really count here! haha

I bought a new pedometer from Priceline today for $2.99 and I think it's the best one i've had yet. Thanks for the recommendation Jadey!!

Bri

How low can you go?

Had to go to the doctor this morning so I came in really late to work. Bought some WW frozen meals and steamfresh veg for lunch for three days of this week.

I got the 2 point meal. Beef whatever-it-is. I figure if this can fill me up i'll save 3 to 4 points every day.

This morning for breakfast I had cereal and yoghurt - no fruit cos we've run out (2 points), a bag of mother earth S&V popcorn (2 points) and now the Beef "thingy" (that's a technical term for those of you who don't understand it) (2 points) with steamfresh vegies (0 points) so i've only had 6 points today so far.

Hopefully that will help me for my weigh in at WW tonight. I haven't been for the last two weeks (naughty naughty). After my bad couple of weeks when I was off work most of the time with DS when I was sick, i'll be lucky to have maintained but will probably post a gain. Oh well, i'm back on track now and I will stay that way.

I now have 2 weddings in November, one on 11th one on 19th and my Work weekend away on 25th - so I have sooo much to be good for.

Will post later tonight and let you know how I go at weigh in, wish me luck!!!!

Bri

Size 14 pants - I LOVE YOU

I went out shopping this morning, had to buy some stuff but also wanted to get out of the house. I bought myself a size 14 pair of cargo pants cos I figured I could fit into them soon, and they were on sale ($20). Did n't bother trying them on, just thought I could use them for inspiration and to help me stay on track for losing and being good.

I tried them on when I got home. Pulled them up over my fat thighs, they slid nicely, over my fat butt, they slid nicely, held my breath for the pulling up of the zipper, no problems there either, ok thought - no way will I be able to do up the button or if/when I do my big fat baby belly will hang over the top - NO IT DIDN'T.

They fit ...................

OMG !!

I'm sooooooo happy!!

So then I thought, shit, bet I picked up a 16 by mistake NOPE - they're a 14.

Next time I went to the loo (and every time since) just have to keep checking that they're not a 16 - NOPE still says 14. Why can't I believe it?????

Bri

I've been good!!

It's the weekend and i've been good. Yesterday, while technically not the weekend, I was at home with DS and then had to pick up ESD (Evil Step Daughter) at lunchtime, so it felt like the weekend. I stayed under my points and even though I didn't get time to walk, I felt good about myself.

Today I wanted to go shopping and DH has taken himself off to get a haircut and left me with ESD and DS. So instead of DH he's now going to be called FB!! hehe

I had my usual weekday breakfast of cereal, yoghurt and fruit this morning, plus an extra - one piece of toast with 5% Philly and WW jam. I usually find that when I have a 5 point breakfast I can last til lunchtime no problems, also cos I eat a bit later on weekends as we usually get a sleep in (up at 7am instead of 6am).

I have three loads of washing to hang out from last night and it's raining. D'oh. Will have to queue it all up at the dryer.

Was going to go for a big walk today with the family but those plans are also put on hold because of the weather. Just as well probably as there is a Dip'n'Dots ice cream shop out there and i'm sure ESD would have asked for one and i'm not sure I could resist!

Anyhoo, best go and do some housework and stuff. Have a great weekend everyone,
Ciao for now,
Bri

Weigh in day!

I'm gobsmacked. I lost 0.4. Current weight 76.4. After the last two weeks i've had I was sure I would have gained.

Oh well, i've been back on track for 3 days now so it's obviously working. Good for me. Now I just have to keep it up over the weekend and beyond.

I'm at home with DS today. He got sent home from daycare yesterday as his conjunctivitis has flared up again. Of course today it has disappeared, oh well.

Hope everyone has a great day, especially those of you at work! hehe *evil laugh*

Bri

A new start ...

OK, i've received a lot of virtual hugs in the last 24 hours, I just want to thank everyone for the kind messages left on my blog yesterday (and those sent by email). I was feeling very low, as you well realise. I can’t keep letting myself get into these rutts cos It’s really damaging my progress.

I am going to take one decision at a time and hope that I can string a whole load of them together.

I received in the mail today, THE most gorgeous dress with matching shawl and jewellery, which is on loan from Michelle (thanks again – you’re the BEST) to wear to the posh wedding on 11 November.

I have 5 weeks til the wedding and I really want to get to 73 kilos by then so that when people say “wow you look great” I can say “yes, thanks, and I feel great cos I’ve lost TWENTY KILOS this year).

Right, so I have (going on this morning’s “first thing” weight) 4.4 kilos to lose – I know I’ll have to be very very good and I’m going to need all the help and motivation I can get from all of you to get me there. (Plus I need DH to do a midnight run to his mother’s house (2 hours away) to get the treadmill).

I just want to thank all of you for helping me with this journey, I know that you realise how very hard this journey is cos you’re all going through it as well, so I thank you for your ongoing support. It would be so much harder without it. My “physical” friends just don’t understand what I’m going through as much as you guys all do.

So, today is a new day and the beginning of a new journey to a slimmer me.

And here’s a reminder from A J Rochester. I have posted this before and I have it on my wall at work and every time I read this passage it reinforces my thoughts on this journey:

“I commit to being the very best that I can be.
I deserve to love, be loved and most importantly of all, to love myself.
I deserve a healthy body and I will never give up on myself, no matter what happens.
I promise to do whatever it takes to make it happen.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
A J Rochester”

Thanks guys, wish me luck.

Briony

OMFG

Ok, I’m really pissed off with myself today and it’s depressing me no end. I used DS’s being sick as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted and I have been continuing this for a week now. I’ve put on 1.5kg on my scales and I’m so angry with myself for doing this.

I’ve just lost all the motivation that I had a couple of weeks ago and I don’t know where it’s gone. I just couldn’t be bothered, yep, we’re back to that again. Sorry!

I’m feeling very much like a lost cause.

It doesn’t help that I had some “stuff” to deal with on the weekend and I’m in a bit of emotional turmoil about that. I just feel like crying my eyes out…..

I need to snap myself out of this or I’m going to do serious damage to my weight loss and I don’t want that. I hate being depressed, it’s shits me.

Also forgot to put my pedometer on today.

I haven’t been at work for a week and I don’t’ even know where to start, I’ve completely lost it.

Bri

I need a nap

My girlfriend came over last night to keep me company while DH was away. I think we got to bed at about 2.30am! Yikes. We had a few drinks, played cards, did some Singstar on the PS2 - what a cack! I'm really tired.

DH on the other hand, didn't get to bed until (he says) 4.30am!! The races weren't what he expected and I think it was a very hot day to be wearing a suit! They ended up going to Kings Cross - as boys do - I rang him at midnight and heard very loud music in the background but he seemed pretty coherent. Especially considering they left where they were staying at 8am yesterday morning to head off to the races.

He is currently pushing out some "zeds" on the recliner lounge and DS is asleep too so i've got time to catch up on some blogs.

I have only eaten once today but unfortunately it was a Filet-of-fish and McFries, I needed something as I was feeling very ill and it was 3pm so I went for a quick fix, old habits sure do die hard don't they?

Oh well, I think we're having chicken greek salad for dinner so that will make up for it.

Tomorrow is a public holiday here so i'll try to convince DH to take DS and I for a big long walk around the lake or something. If it's as hot tomorrow as it is today we'll have to go early, or late as the case may be (probably late cos i'm hoping for a sleep in tomorrow - i've been up at 4.30am the last two mornings with DS).

Also the NRL Grand Final is on today and there are a lot of parties happening around here, everyone seems to be having a BBQ - the smells wafting in the air are amazing - I love the smell of BBQ cooking. Yummo...........

My WWA thing isn't going too well. Day one I did 1132 steps and yesterday I did 1212 - I didn't even bother putting the pedometer on today as I don't think it's working properly. Yesterday morning I looked and it said 743 and 4 hours later it said 787 and i'd been out to the washing line 4 times so that can't be right can it? Bugger that is the third pedometer i've bought that has been a dud, or maybe i'm not doing it properly? Dunno dunno dunno !!!!! All I know is if I can't even make it to 2000 steps in one day, there's a major problem here.

Happy Sunday Evening everyone!

Bri

I knew it.....

Got on the scales this morning and I was 76.3 - so i've lost 0.5kg. I'm not putting it on my weight record though cos I have to stick to my Friday weight. Hopefully this will give me a better reading next week (unless all the crap i've eaten catches up with me!!).

Can't blog more today as it's just me and the baby so it's going to be full on today.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Bri