My niece

Here is my brand new beautiful niece, Anna-Maie. She was born on the 8th of August (ok so she's not brand new, she's 3 weeks old). She is just soooo tiny and gorgeous! Except for my chins this is quite a nice photo of DH, DS and I, but I really should have put some make-up on! haha

Bri

Really good and really bad

A few of my blogger pals have one of two things happening in their lives at the moment, really really good stuff or really really bad stuff. Seems like only extremes are valid this week.

I know I was complaining last week about the baby being sick and how I was tired from being awake with him all night every night and then going to work all day, but that is nothing compared to what some of my beautiful friends are going through at the moment.

Just know that my thoughts are with you all and I feel for you. You are all being so brave and strong and I am very proud of you all and I know you will make it through these tough times albeit a little sad, but if you remember the good times you will keep the memories alive.

On the other hand, Kellee - who will from this day forward be known as "LEGEND SUPERSTAR KELLEE" has got herself a fantastic gig in Queensland playing with Wendy Matthews and Glenn Shorrock. How bloody cool is THAT? Congratulations Kellee, I am sure it will go really really well for you.

I know that you will miss Charlie, but he'll be fine and you'll appreciate him so much more when you get home. Tom and your Mum will take very good care of him. After all - your Mum took very good care of you! haha

Anyway, that's enough of my ramblings. Just wanted to say a few short words and now that that's out of the way I will confess to eating the Peanut Butter Kit Kat last night, but I promise you that I have been on track today and I even went for a quick walk this morning.

I am determined to have a loss this week. Oh, I also didn't go to the meeting.

I figure no-one reads down this far in blogs so i'm cool, no-one will find out (**evil cackle**).

Ciao
Bri

Time to regroup

OK, so I didn't eat the bloody peanut butter Kit-kat, but it's still at home, in the fridge, unless DH has eaten it today (fingers crossed!!). I can hear it calling my name from here, so he probably hasn't eaten it.

I'm having a 2 point WW frozen meal for lunch to make up for maybe eating the Kit-kat later (hopefully not). I've been eating crap for the last week and I wasn't going to go to WW tonight as I feel very guilty (especially after TWO Nights out this week which consisted of LOADS of alcohol - has anyone tried Strawberry Sass?, Wedges, Steaks, Baileys, Champagne, CSC's, and other assorted alcoholic beverages - my goodness - it's a wonder I didn't explode!!), but I think i'll go as I need to be held accountable. Well, I know i'm accountable to you lot and some of you are a bit scarey (Hi Kellee!! Just kidding - ha ha ha) but I think if I weigh in it will make me do something about it. Plus I didn't go last week cos Bug-a-lugs was sick.

Another problem i'm having is that I promised one of the Ozgeek girls that I wouldn't weigh myself every day and I haven't but it means I can't keep a track on how i'm going, so I don't think it's helping me at all and i'm going to go back to weighing myself cos then I know if i'm on track and I can say "good girl Briony, we're doing really well, look at that a loss of 0.2 today or whatever".

And yes I know that if I was eating properly and exercising I shouldn't need to get on the scales.

So, it's time to regroup and here's what i've done about it:

I made a shopping list for all the ingredients from the WW Week One book and i'm going to stick to it.

and here's my pledge to you (please hold me accountable):

I, Briony Helen Price, promise to stick to Weight Watchers Week One recipes this week and I will NOT have any Peanut Butter Kit-Kats or any other chocolate.

If I feel like chocolate I will have a Jarrah Choc-Toff drink (?1 point) and if that doesn't work I will distract myself by doing some housework, folding some clean clothes, reading the new Harry Potter book or playing with the baby.

I will remind myself everyday that I am worth fighting for and that the long term feeling of being slimmer and healthier will be a much better feeling than the five minute high received from eating chocolate, drinking alcohol or eating anything else "bad" (especially when I have hours of guilt afterwards anyway).

and ..... I will try not to smoke instead of eating .....

Wish me luck.

Briony

Damn you Peanut Butter Kit-Kats!

I am really pissed off with myself, how many times have I fallen off the bloody wagon in the last 3 months, and even after that horrific "fat belly" photo? You would think that would have snapped me back into diet mode?

Nope.......... I'm such a loser ..........

..... and who the hell invents a peanut butter filled Kit-Kat? Is the whole world against me losing weight? Has anyone seen that episode of the Simpsons that mentions a hundred times "smothered in rich creamery butter" it's like they're all out to get him. That's a bit how I feel today!!

Bri

Weekus Horribilus

I know that some of my blogging friends are having hard weeks this week so I will try not to complain too much, my life isn't so bad.

The baby is much better, thanks everyone for your well wishes and kind thoughts. He was really sick and it scared the absolute $h#t out of me. He is just about back to normal now. DH stayed home with him from Wednesday to today (he's between jobs thank goodness) and they've really bonded in that time, which is fantastic too.

I had a "work do" last night and today i'm severely hungover. My boss took his camera with him last night and the photos are pretty bad. There's one of me being lifted up by the boys and my shirt has come up and you can see my bra, but worse than that, my fat gut, baby belly and stretch marks are there for all and sundry to gawk at. I'm so ashamed. I asked him to delete the photo but I don't believe that he has.

I cried about it this afternoon.....

If I was skinny and didn't have a fat belly I wouldn't feel so bad. I thought that losing 15 kg would have made me look so much better, but I now realise I have SUCH a long way further to go.

I ate crap today (Bacon, egg and cheese roll for breakfast, Sausage roll for lunch, packet of S&V chips this afternoon) but that has to stop. Perhaps I should have kept that photo for motivation but I don't think DH would be impressed!!

I so need to get back on the WW wagon.

Wish me luck,
Bri

Sick baby

A sick baby who doesn't sleep is very worrying and stressful and tiring. Being tired, stressed and worrying makes me eat crap. Eating crap makes me more tired and being more tired makes me stress and worry more, which makes me more tired and more susceptible to eating crap.

Can you see the pattern here?

Haven't weighed in this week because of Lachie being sick. I'm just beside myself. I really really hope he gets better soon. He had a fever of 39.6 yesterday and 39.1 today.

All mothers out there would know, there's nothing more worrying and upsetting than a sick child.

I hope everyone is going ok and I hope to catch up on your blogs soon, but realistically it won't be until the weekend.

Stay well until then,
Bri

Uh oh

Not a good weekend, there were no healthy choices to be made, so I just had to eat LESS, which I managed to do, but now i'm really craving some healthy food. Think we'll just have BBQ'd steak and a simple salad for tea.

I haven't weighed myself since early last week cos I promised one of the girls on Ozgeek that I wouldn't get on the scales, but i'm tempted to get on and see if i've done any damage! Yikes.

Anyway, i'll be back to eating properly and walking tomorrow.

It's so great to be home, i'm not a fan of travelling for hours in the car. The baby was fantastic though, he was awake for most of the journey home and hardly whinged at all.

Must go and do the housework now that I normally would have done on Saturday.

Ciao
Bri

Weekends away

Weekends away are really hard, especially when your sister has "Pizza night" every Friday and you come to visit on a Friday. D'oh.
Only did 3,000 steps yesterday as we spent most of the day in the car. I'll have to make up for it today but it's pouring rain in Canberra, might have to go shopping!
Hope everyone is doing better than me, i'll catch up with your blogs when I get home on Sunday, hopefully.
Bri

Oh my gosh

I can't believe that I didn't realise I was also over halfway. I just saw my ticker and nearly fell off my chair.

My brain isn't working today obviously!!

hahaha

Bri

Yay for me

Woo hoo, I lost 1.2 this week. That's the lowest weight i've been this year and it's officially 10 kg lost since I started Weight Watchers on 10 January 2005 (total of 15.1 lost since 1 January 2005).

I'm stoked .........

77.9 kg.

Yay for me.....

Bri

Pass the Gastrolyte !!

I am really sick today, I have the "poo and spew" thing that's going around. Can't go to work. I hope the baby doesn't get it. Yikes.....

I did end up going to the shops yesterday. It was awful but I forced myself to do it and I survived (obviously). I bought DS some shoes ($65!!!) and I spent an absolute fortune at Pumpkin Patch - damn their sales!! haha

Got some really cute stuff for my sister's baby, a little girl born last Monday. We're hopefully going to Canberra this weekend to meet the new baby. Hope it doesn't make me clucky! Although i'm sure DH would be happy cos at least then he would be getting some "action"! LOL.

Hope everyone's day is going better than mine.

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone for your lovely comments over the last few days, it certainly helps to know that we have support out there in blog land, and everyone's comments are really helping to keep me motivated - thank you!!

Ciao for now,
Bri

I think I need professional help.....

Here's my honesty input for this week .....

I think I need professional help. I have this phobia of going out of the house. Which is really stupid .... nevertheless .... it's there.

I can go to work, no problems, I can go to other people's houses, no problems, I can go to band practice, no problems, but try and get out to go to the shops by myself (with or without DS) and there's a problem.

I got dressed to go out this morning, I was dressed before DH left to go to work and I was intent on going out to the shops. DS needs shoes (as I said before) plus there's a heap of other stuff I want (not need, but want!!) so it's money spending - which I love - I was even thinking about getting a new pair of boots for myself, but I can't do it..........

I rang a girlfriend and offered to take her out shopping and then to lunch (she's broke) but she already had plans and now I just can't make myself go to the shops on my own.

I also rang my SIL, but she went to Myer yesterday and was there for four hours.

She says Pumpkin Patch are having a sale, so I should go. She also said that Clinique have their bonus offer on, and I need a new eye pencil anyway so it's great timing ......... but I can't do it....

I'm going to have to find a counsellor or a psychologist - I have to sort this out once and for all.....

It first started when I lived in Helsinki, and I had that S-A-D thing, I couldn't go anywhere, not even to the little shop, not even when the cupboards were empty .........

It's not as bad as it was then, but it's still there, and I had forgotten until today ............

somebody help me.... please.......

Sunday already

Doesn't Sunday come around fast?

Well, i've had a re-think about the walking thing and i've decided that I need one day a week where I can just relax and Sunday is going to be it. Working full time and looking after a baby is full on, as i'm sure most of you know. So i'm not going to worry about doing my 10,000 steps on a Sunday, i'll just do incidental exercise. As long as I do my two walks on weekdays and make sure I get 10,000 on a Saturday i'm sure that will be enough for now, especially considering not that long ago I was doing absolutely nothing, AND stuffing my face!

I'm going to try to go shopping today so i'll probably rack up a few thousand steps doing that anyway. DS needs some shoes now that he's walking full time and I want to buy him one of those chalk/magnetic boards. I just have to get up the courage to go to the shopping centre on my own (I hate shopping centres, especially the carparks!) and I have to go to Myer cos I want DS to have good shoes, and Myer is over at Charlestown, it's the busiest shopping centre in the Newcastle area. The parking over there is crap and I absolutely don't want to scratch my new work car, so i'm a bit scared!

Or maybe i'm just being a whimp, I have a bit of a phobia about going out on my own, but that's a whole other blog!! haha

Hope everyone is having a great weekend, the weather is certainly getting better.

Ciao for now,
Bri

Yahooee I did it

10,000 steps plus (10,032 to be exact). I'm soooo proud of myself. I just looked at my pedometer about half an hour ago and it was only on 9,352 so I walked around the house (inside - too cold outside) until it went over 10,000!!! My DH thinks i'm an absolute nutter, haha.

Yay, I feel SOOO proud of myself. (Except that I just had another two brownies - oops!! No I haven't thrown them out yet).

I'm going to try and do another 10,000 tomorrow. Then if I can do 7,000 to 8,000 on weekdays and 10,000 on the weekend days, i'll be a much happier person - oh, and I also have to stop eating brownies - ha ha.

The baby went to bed at 6pm and hasn't woken up. I think he's going to sleep through, he hasn't even had a bath or his dinner!!! What's going on. Yes, I completely know i'm in the lead for the "Worst Mother of the Year Award" thanks for reminding me. I'll probably be up with him at 2am and he'll think its morning and want to play! Yikes. He did this a couple of weeks ago, he only had one sleep through the day, which he also did today and then went for his afternoon nap and just kept sleeping. I guess if he needs it then he should just sleep, I guess he'll wake up if he's hungry or whatever??? Luckily I had just changed his bottom before his nap!!!

I'm going to go and read some more of A J Rochester's book now. Goodnight everyone.

Hope you're all having a great weekend!
lots of love,
Bri

Exhausted

Well, we did it. We went for our walk. For 50 minutes. No, that's not a typo, I really did walk for that long! yay for me.

Pedometer is now reading 8,586 so i'm bound to get my record today.

Will keep you posted, of course.

Bri

Crikey

Just had a look at Flutterbye's blog and there's a link there to "healthy weight range". Mine is 52 kg to 66kg, crikey i'm a long way off that! Although at least i'm a lot closer than when I started this journey at 93kg!

Even for the top end (66) i'm still 11 kg away. I had best pull my finger out I think. Thankfully the weather is a little warmer today. I might take bug-a-lugs for a walk in the pram this afternoon. Make that I WILL take bug-a-lugs for a walk in the pram. I'm determined to get to 10,000 steps today if it kills me.

I had to go shopping last night, DH usually goes but I said I would. No sooner did I get to Coles and DS dirtied his nappy, of course I didn't have any supplies with me as usually I pick him up from daycare and we go straight home. I didn't want to go home then go back to the shops so I quickly wizzed around and ran out again and drove home like a maniac. He is teething so he has quite sore nappy rash at the moment and the longer you leave the "dirty" in there, the worse it gets. Poor little thing.

So today i'm going to put some supplies in the boot of my car incase that ever happens again. (Make that "for when it happens again"). I'm such a bad mother. Did I tell you about last weekend when I was checking blogs and DS was in the loungeroom playing. I hadn't heard him making any noise for a while and when I went to investigate he was asleep on a pile of toys. Yikes!!

Also, while I was at Coles, a pack of those new Sara Lee bake in the oven Brownies jumped into my basket. OMG - they are absolutely devine. I cooked up a couple for DH and I last night. Now I really think I should throw them out, especially since I bought AJ Rochester's book "The Lazy Girl's Guide to Losing Weight and Getting Fit" yesterday, and one of the first things she says is " no last supper, throw out all the junk food right now". Crikey again.....

What to do, what to do. . . . . Weekends are soooo hard for being good. DH is working (as usual) and the fridge and cupboards are calling me ever so sweetly.................

Anyhoo, must go and do some housework, maybe that will take my mind of the food. DS is due to wake up soon too so I better get a wriggle on. Have a great weekend everyone!
Lots of love and hugs,
Bri

Yay, at last, at last

Hopped on the scales this morning and I was quite surprised to see a loss (77.1). That's the lightest i've been in a couple of months so obviously my hard work this week is paying off! (Eating properly, walking twice everyday).

Thank goodness cos if I had kept going the way I was going I think I would have given up soon.
Let's hope it shows on the WW scales on Monday night! Fingers crossed.

Quite busy at work today so that's all I have time to report as I want to try and catch up on a couple of other blogs that I haven't read in a while. Also it's much easier to read and eat than it is to type and eat! haha

Wish me luck for good eating and lots of walking at the weekend (weekends are the hardest!).

Lots of love and hugs to everyone!
Bri

A much better day

8330 steps

18 points of food

3 walks

I feel better today and wasn't looking to pig out (well not yet anyway!). I didn't do the DVD and I still haven't managed any push ups or sit ups since last week so i'm due for about 100 of each tomorrow night. haha

I'm slowly getting my motivation back. Work is really busy so that helps as I don't have time to snack. I had some WW ice cream and a WW sticky date pudding last night but I don't think I went over my points ?? I'm not tracking, I must start.

I would like to share this paragraph with you, which my very good friend Michelle sent me today. I have it on my wall at work and i'm going to read it every time i'm feeling down or weak....

"I commit to being the very best that I can be. I deserve to love, be loved and
most importantly of all, to love myself. I deserve a healthy body and I will
never give up on myself, no matter what happens, and I promise to do whatever it
takes to make it happen. Today is the first day of the rest of my life"..... A.J. Rochester.

A better day??

Well maybe a bit better, i've done over 7,000 steps so far, which is unreal for me but still not anywhere near the 10,000 I would like to do everyday. I walked down to get the post this morning and then walked up to do the banking again this afternoon.

Have eaten 10.5 pts today, but it has certainly been a carb loaded day! Having steak and salad for dinner so that should make up for all the carbs i've had.

I'm going to try and start the kickboxing DVD (thanks Michelle) after the baby goes to sleep, wish me luck.

Hopefully i'll be able to add another 1,000 or so steps to my pedometer.

Bri

OK so i've sorted out the photo

Now I just need to sort out my diet and my life. Not very happy today, had a big fight with DH. Why are men so ridiculous? I think the planet would be better off without them sometimes!

Anyway, work is mental so i'll have to post later. Thanks Michelle and Margaret for the comments about my photos, it made me decide which one to use. Hopefully soon i'll lose some weight and i'll be able to get a new photo to put up there.

Hope you're all having a great day!

lots of love,
Bri

or maybe this one? It was taken about 5 months after Lachlan was born. 

Not a very nice photo, but i'm thinking I might use it for my profile photo, instead of the one with DH, DS and SD. 

Lachlan and I at his First Birthday Party 

Holy crappoli Batman

I'm not even going to tell you what i've eaten this weekend, you would be upset with me. All i'm going to tell you is that as of tomorrow (yes, I know you've all heard this before, but I really mean it this time) i'm going to be good. No more excuses. This weekend was hard cos we were away at my MIL's and we had some stuff to deal with so we comfort ate. We all needed it though (that's what we're telling ourselves anyway).
On the up side I took the baby for a quick walk this morning, just the two of us, we walked for 25 minutes and I did 3,500 steps. I already have 5,000 for the day and I feel pretty good about that. Well, 5,000 is good for me as sometimes i'm struggling to get past 3,000. I drive to work and park in the driveway there, I sit down all day and then I drive home so I really don't get much walking in through the day. After I bought the pedometer last week I said I would try to do more steps every day than I did the first day and, apart from Friday, I managed to do that.

Last week I made an effort a few days to walk down to pick up the mail for work (about 15 minutes) and to walk the banking up in the afternoon (about 20 mins) so that made a bit of a difference. I think lack of exercise is my main problem so i'm going to try and figure out a way I can get more walking into my days.

I'm also eagerly awaiting some exercise DVD's that a friend is sending me (thanks heaps!!) as i'm going to try and do a bit of that every morning also.

Well, I have to get ready for tomorrow now, so I had best go and start tidying up. I will be very very glad when the SD goes home as i'm absolutely over her today. Her and DH are out playing PS2 at the moment so i'm getting some peace. She is very demanding and "I am-ish" just like her mother. Enough bitching!
I am going to try and remember to write down some things I am grateful for each day as i'm sick (and i'm sure you are too) of my negativity so ....

Things I am grateful for today:

1. My healthy beautiful son (although he's teething so ..... not quite as healthy as normal).

2. The new stroller that DH bought that folds up like an umbrella, which takes up a LOT less room in the boot.

3. OK, I deleted this one cos I said I wouldn't bitch anymore.

Ciao everyone
Hope you had a great weekend.
lots of love,
Bri

Food 'what I ate' today - 4/8/05

Breakfast:

2 toast - 3 pts
cottage cheese - 1 pt
coffee - 0 pts

= 4 pts

Lunch:

WW Chicken risotto - 5 pts
Steam fresh vegies - 0 pts
Pepsi Max - 0 pts

Daily total: 9 points

Walked to get the mail (15 minutes)
Steps so far: 3204

My food for today

From now on, in a separate post, I will write "food what I ate today" - to keep myself accountable (yes to you Michelle!)

Breakfast:

Cereal - 1.5 pts
WW fruit pack - 0.5 pts
1 toast - 1.5 pts
1 cheese slice - 1 pt

4.5 pts

Lunch:

WW Chick pea Curry - 4.5 pts
1 pack steam fresh vegies - 0 (don't think they have a point value)
Large banana - 2 pts

6.5 pts

Snack:

Vegemite sandwich: 3 pts

Dinner:

Chicken stir fry - 6 pts


TOTAL: 20 pts

Exercise
7687 steps
15 minutes (getting the mail)
20 mins (banking)
10 situps
10 pushups

The good, the bad and the completely stupid.

GOOD:

I bought a pedometer (you probably already know that).
Yesterday I did 5625 steps (very sedentary)
Today I wanted to beat that and I did 8785 - that's 2760 more, but still sedentary.
I promise I will do more steps tomorrow. I want to be doing 10000 a day within the next week or so. I am also going to do my situps and pushups tonight for the last two days, so that means 20 of each, my arms are still sore from the 10 I did on Sunday! haha

BAD:

Had fish and chips for tea and DH bought me a chocolate. Do you think that maybe he doesn't want me to lose weight? I'm cranky with him, but more cranky with myself cos I should have just said "no" and heated up a WW frozen dinner and let him eat the lot, but i'm weak and tired and ...

COMPLETELY STUPID.

He's cracked it .....

How funny is this photo, i'm using it as my new avatar on Ozgeek. Hee hee. It makes me laugh (am I a horrible mother).

We call this the "Sponge Bob Square Mouth" look.

At least it's cheered me up for the evening. Not sure how impressed DS would be if he knew i'd put a photo of him blowing up on the internet! haha

Have a great day tomorrow everyone. I know I will be - I have a "step" total to beat.

Bri

New ticker

By the way, I changed my ticker to a ladybird taking a nice walk in the grass, better than a slow old turtle eating all those lemon meringue pies. Maybe it will help with next week's weight loss. You never know your luck, haha.

Bri

"sniff sniff, boo hoo, woe is me"

I was really good this week, ok not SUPER good, but I was really good for me, and I tried quite hard. I even bloody-well exercised!!!

I only lost 0.1. Now yes I can hear you all saying a loss is a loss, and I know what I would say to someone else who had only lost 0.1 so I won't bother boring you with that, we've all heard it before. I just thought I would do better this week and i'm just completely depressed now.

I'm also annoyed with myself and I want to go and feed my face with every kind of junk imaginable cos i'm in "why bother" mode now.

But ... i'm going to pretend that Michelle and Kellee (thanks girls - hope you don't mind) are outside my door barring me from getting to the car and going to "drive-through [insert favourite take away name here].

Damn it to hell and back again................

I'll write more when i'm feeling better tomorrow, hopefully!

Bri

D day

Or weigh in day number one. I'm scared you-know-what-less. Hopefully i've lost this week but if not, then at least its the start of the GTG Challenge and i've got maximum starting power.

Will post later, after WW, with my "results".

Have a great day everyone.

Bri