I’m giving myself a break this week. The funeral yesterday was awful. I won’t go into details but needless to say I’m mentally exhausted. I think the last couple of weeks with being busy at work, busy at home and busy on weekends has really taken it out of me. Plus my father visited at the weekend and he always stresses me out. How can one of your parents bring out the worst in you? Actually my mother does the same thing, thank goodness they got divorced 20 years ago – imagine both of them at once – holy snapping duck poo!!!!!
I just need to look after myself now for a few days. I’m sure I’ll be much better once this next weekend is over and done with, then I can relax for a couple of weeks before the Christmas “BS” kicks in.
I really miss my DS. I feel like I’m not getting to see him at all and I’m getting the guilts about it big time. I was in tears this morning when I left him at daycare.
Forgive me if I don’t blog too much this week as I really don’t think I can afford the time. Plus it would just be sad sack stuff that you all really don’t need to hear anyway.
I’ll catch up on you all by the end of the week, but I’m just needing to really concentrate on myself and my family this week and give them some quality time.
Isn’t it strange, this is happening to a few of us lately. I guess it’s just that time of year. I hate Christmas.
I hope you all have a fantastic week. Take care of yourselves – you are all so worth it.
Edit: I'm adding this quiz thing that everyone else has done. I did it last week but just haven't had the chance to add it in yet.
My turn, if you’re not bored with these, enjoy! If you are bored with these, stop reading NOW!!
Twelve movies I like (in no particular order)
1. Life is beautiful
2. Charlie and the Chocolate factory (old one)
3. A Few Good Men (I can quote the whole movie)
4. The Notebook
5. Finding Nemo
6. Anything with Colin Firth in it
7. The Godfather series
8. Any of the Harry Potter movies (10 days til the next one comes out)
9. Bridget Jones (both movies)
10. Anything with Vin Diesel in it –especially when he has his shirt off!! Haha
11. Something’s Gotta Give
12. 50 First Dates
Eleven books on my bedside table
1. The Lazy Girl’s Guide to dieting and exercise – A J Rochester
2. Digital Fortress – Dan Brown
3. Kid Wrangling - Kaz Cooke
4. WW Magazines (haven’t read the last two yet)
5. Further under the duvet – Marian Keyes
6. Just between us – Cathy Kelly
7. Past Mortem – Ben Elton
8. Area 7 – Matthew Reilly
9. So What do you reckon – Robert G Barrett
10. The Newcastle Herald (last Saturday’s)– also unread
11. Where is the Green Sheep – Meme Fox
Ten things about me (get ready there's some doozies in here!!)
1. I was born in Scotland
2. My mother is a lesbian
3. My father is a Jehovah’s witness (believe me it's WORSE than my mother thing!!)
4. I used to be the lead singer in a “lounge music” band
5. I’m now a back-up singer in an Elvis band
6. I lived in Europe for 2 years when I was 30
7. I’ve been married three times
8. I’m 40 next year
9. I have a phobia of large crowds
10. I listen to Triple J
Nine CDs I have listened to recently
1. Ants in the Apple
2. Swing when you’re winning – Robbie Williams
3. Blue King Brown – Self Titled
4. Sound of White – Missy Higgins
5. Live at Nebworth – Robbie Williams
6. Intensive Care – Robbie Williams
7. Escapology – Robbie Williams
8. Soundtrack – Pulp Fiction
9. Greatest Hits - (guess who - yep you're right) Robbie Williams
Eight favourite foods/drinks
1. Champagne
2. Strawberry Champagne
3. Mexican Food
4. Steamed vegetables
5. White Castello Cheese with crusty bread and strawberries
6. Curly fries from Hog’s Breath
7. Pink Champagne
8. Sausage rolls
Seven things I wear daily
1. Wedding ring
2. Engagement ring
3. Eternity ring
4. 2 pairs of earrings
5. Underwear (rarely matching)
6. Deoderant (hopefully we all do!)
7. Lip balm
Six things I dislike
1. Stupid people (you know the ones i'm talking about)
2. Road rage
3. Brussel sprouts and spinach
4. Back stabbers
5. Whingers (although I can be one at times – no surprises there)
6. Racism
Five things I do daily
1. Brush my teeth
2. Blog
3. Check my emails, work and home
4. Give my boy lots of kisses and cuddles and tell him I love him (the son – not the husband)
5. Stub my toe on the baby gate
Four TV shows I watch
1. Biggest Loser
2. Australian Idol (not after last night I guess)
3. Spicks and Specks
4. ABC Kids
Three places I have lived
1. Scotland
2. Finland
3. Sweden
Two things I want
1. To be happy with my self
2. For my son to grow up being respectful of others
One person I want to see right now - (can I change this to two?)
1. My son, Lachlan – I cried when I left him at daycare today cos I feel like I haven’t spent much time with him lately and we’re going away this weekend without him.
2. My very very good friend Michelle. We both need some serious hugs right now.
Bri
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6 comments:
OH NOW YOU MADE ME CRY..HANG IN THERE MY FRIEND AND THINGS WILL GET BETTER. GRIEF IS SOMETHING YOU JUST NEED TO LET YOURSELF FEEL..LET IT OUT BRI AN DTHEN YOU WILL BE ABLE TO MOVE FORWRAD.
LOTS OF HUGS TO YOU FROM ME
Hi Bri. Funerals can be very heartwrenching but can also be good in that we remember to cherish those that are still with us and help us to appreciate them even more.
Putting a child (or two) in childcare is a tough thing for any Mum who loves her children to do. There have been days when I drop them off then go and sit in the car and cry before I go to work. Not often, but a couple of times a year. As we don't have family here I love that the boys have an opportunity to socialise, learn new skills, play with toys we don't have, paint the walls (which we don't allow LOL) so I feel the good outweighs the bad.
Lachie knows you love him and probably doesn't even know you aren't there - until you pick him up.
I seriously love your list. And you are right - there are some doozies in there LOL. Like living in Sweden. I would say "Hej. Hou mor do? Ya er Margaret. Va heter du?" But I know the answer would be "I am fine thanks. And my name is Bri" (and my Swedish spelling probably sucks and you would not have worked out what I meant LOL)
I'm sending lots of hugs and happiness for this week of reclaiming yourself and look forward to you coming back and blogging with a vengence on this home stretch to 2006. Whooo Hoooo.
Hi
Thinking of you and hoping that the time out helps you.
Your new picture is lovely and your son is very lucky to have a Mum who misses him so much.I remember those feelings so well even though it has been a long time.Your list was really interesting. Lots of wows from this reader.Love your taste in music, well RW in particular!!!
xxx
Poor Bri. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you to leave Lachlan at day care. I was shocking when I had to leave Charlie with Mum when I went on tour, so I can understand your pain! I know he still loves you and that it won't "scar" him for life or anything, so don't worry about it from that perspective.
I absolutely loved your list. I want to get "Kid Wrangling" - that can be a Xmas pressie, I think! And how's that about your mum and dad! Wow - I need to come down there and get drunk with you and have lots of d and m's! They would be very interesting.
Hope you're feeling better. Christmas WILL be nice - try not to stress out about it, especially with all the crap you've got to deal with this week. Thinking of you and hoping that you're rad.
So sorry to hear that the funeral was so upsetting, but agree with Michelle that you do need this time to grieve. Its no surprise that you are feeling so guilty about Lachlan either - losing someone will always make you appreciate your own family and health so much more.
Hope you have some nice time chilling out this week, and we look forward to catching up with you again next week.
PS, I love Robbie Williams too!
Big hug to you from me. Hope you feel better after the weekend.
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