Back to the grindstone. Don't get me wrong, I love my job, especially since I won "employee of the month" for the whole of Australia last week. Yay me. I'm just very very tired. It's been a trying month. My eating has just turned to shit and I feel really fat, ugly and very sorry for myself.
I can't wait til Christmas is over and I can get back to normality.
I've put back on some of the weight i've lost and i'm now back to 77.7kg. Very disappointing. I haven't been eating anything too bad, it's just the amounts, oh and the drinking. It's hard when you're not at your own house and you don't really have control over a lot of what you're eating. Also when you're tired it's just so much easier to have "quick" stuff - which means convenience foods. I did make healthy choices and watch my portion sizes but when it gets to the two week mark and it's still happening the scales can only go one way.
I tried to change my ticker but there's something wrong with tickerfactory and for some reason I can't get into it.
I have so much to do at home and no time to do any of it.
DS woke up a few times last night, he has to readjust to his own bed again now. Then we had a few yahoos who had stolen a car and set it on fire outside our house, and the fire engine roaring down the street and the petrol tank exploding at 4am was just too much for me to handle.
I had to keep it together for Nanna's funeral, because of doing the reading and I haven't really cried about it yet. It's all welled up inside me and I just know it's going to come out at the most inappropriate time. I've just been so busy and haven't really had time to get over it.
Anyway, sorry for the "whingey-complainey" post. Still haven't found 'Motivated Briony' - she's gone AWOL, I hope she comes back soon.
Bri
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4 comments:
Welcome back, and sorry to hear about your gain. Honestly, you've had a really tough 3 weeks and I don't think any one of us could have coped any better. You're back now, and from the sounds of things, you Kim & Robbie will be pounding the treadmill and kicking that gain to the curb.
Hope your Xmas build-up is low-key, and devoid of any more nasty surprises.
BTW, I have finally got Intensive Care, its great!!!
BE good to Bri even if sh is unmotivated at the moment. She has had a hard month. She will be back for sure after christmas raring to get into the 60's.
Hi Bri, I'm sorry to hear about your nanna and that you're having a stressful month. Take care of yourself and stay strong!
hi bri
we still love you unmotivated or not
hey i think 80% of us are unmotivated at the moment (me included) so you're in good company
take care mate
mel
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