Bra shopping

I've been talking about buying new bras for ages. I kept saying i'll wait until i've lost another few kilos, but my old ones (which i've had for about 5 or 6 years) were starting to show the wear and tear of a very hard life. A couple of them have ripped in the back where you undo the hook and eye thingies and it was all very sad. I bit the bullet and went bra shopping yesterday.

I can't shop in the "normal" stores like Target or Kmart for bras, they just don't stock my size. So I knew I was up for a couple of hundred dollars, comfort comes at a high price for girls like me.

When I was younger I was always a 10DD (and proud of it). My maternity bras were 16Fs and my 'stock' bras that I have just replaced were 14E's! Crikey, hard to admit, but there you have it.

I was actually a wee bit worried that I would need to get 16's, which would have been depressing, but I thought "what the hey" as long as they're comfortable it doesn't matter and I can replace them with a smaller size in about 6 months or so when i've lost my next 10 kilos (or hopefully more).

So do you want the good news ... or the bad news ... ?????

12 G

Holy crap, that shouldn't be possible.

First of all "G"??? What the hell? Why can't I just be a nice D cup like normal people? All you girls out there who are small busted please take note, it's expensive and painful to have big bazzoombas. The lady in the shop assures me that when i've lost more weight, my boobs will stay the same. Very depressing. End of story.

Secondly "size 12"!! yay me - I was gobsmacked. Once I got over the G thing of course. The lady in the shop, who was lovely, gave me a 12 H to try on (she said it was a small fitting) HAH - small - I don't bloody think so - it was a H !!!

I told her to take it away.

So I left feeling happy and depressed all at once. Have you ever felt like that? Two very separate and very different emotions, but all at one time.

Now I have to go and plan our meals for the week. We're still deciding whether we're going to attempt the Optifast thing for a few days this week as a kickstart. I would love to, but I don't think I have the willpower, we'll see how we go, i'll keep you posted.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend.

Bri

Back to basic basics

I'm thinking about going back to WW. I've heard so many good stories about the No Count plan and I think I want to try it for myself. A friend who also used to go to WW is also thinking about going back. She has one of those free registration 'for you and a friend' vouchers. We have to decide before the end of May. I think it would be good for us. We weigh about the same so it would be a good competition against each other as well as on the scales. I'm just finding it so hard to get motivated.

My eating has been great for the last two weeks, but my weight has come down and gone back up (could have something to do with TTOTM) so i'm at the same place I was 2 weeks ago (12 months ago too). I think I need a kickstart and I was thinking about Optifast, but its so harsh and I usually end up giving up before i've even completed one day.

I'm also struggling to find time to exercise at the moment. DS is waking up at all hours of the night and then it takes me ages to get back to sleep so i'm tired all the time. Work is still really busy and there's no end in sight there. I'm going to take my joggers to work next week and go for a walk at lunchtime (I don't really get a lunchbreak and I usually just sit at my desk). Even if its only 15 minutes it's better than nothing, plus it gets me out of the office to clear my head for a few minutes.

I just don't seem to be getting anywhere at the moment and because i've made an extra effort its very disheartening.

Bri

It's Wednesday already

I keep thinking it's Monday..... do you? It's strange.

First of all I have to say congratulations to Phillipa, who has made it to her WW GOAL weight!! Yay. Pop over and visit her blog if you haven't been there before, she is a great inspiration to so many of us!

Anzac Day was pretty quiet for me. Picked hubby up at 9am from the club, he had been to the dawn service. Last year I picked him up at 11.30am and he was tractor faced drunk, this year (picking him up earlier) he wasn't too bad, although he did have a bit of the wobbly boot thing happening! I'm not sure how he can bring himself to have a drink so early in the morning, but his mates were staying on at the pub and he chose to come home. Probably didn't want the wrath of Briony on his head if he didn't!!! Anyway he sat and watched war movies all day while I did the housework, so i'm all caught up now.

I've been quite good with my food this week, as I was most of last week. Can't say i've been good with the not smoking but I just think one thing at a time at the moment is the way to go. I haven't been exercising as much as I would like because i've been waking up in the early hours with DS and then I can't get back to sleep. I have a lot on my mind at the moment, mostly silly stuff, but it still keeps me awake. Then last night I had really bad period pain, which I still have tonight, so that didn't help.

Anyway, two good things happening tomorrow. The Biggest Loser finale - I really think Harry will win, but I can't wait to see everyone and how they are looking now.

AND

The new PS2 Buzz game (general knowledge) comes out tomorrow too. I have to come home at lunchtime to let the pest control man in (I've found 2 red back spiders in the bathroom since we moved in 4 weeks ago and I think it's just better to spend the money and get them sorted out) so I will have time to go via Target to get the new game.

I'm skipping band practice tomorrow night to watch the final show (is that bad?). Our next show isn't til the middle of June and i'm the last one who needs to practice out of the other band members anyway!! (except for my DH who plays keyboard and is very very good, he also doesn't need the practice.).

That's it for me, i'm off to hit the sack.

Hope everyone is having a great week.

Bri

Shortest post in history.

Another Sunday has come around so fast. At least we have another short week this week, even if it is split up. My eating has been a lot better this week, but I only exercised once. I really need to increase that. Nothing else to report really today, I have heaps of housework to do so I must go and get started whilst DS is asleep. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
Bri

Great blog pals.

I am so lucky. I have met some of the greatest blog pals ever in the last 12 months. I just couldn't go through this journey without first of all the motivation I get from reading the blogs of really successful "losers" - you know who you are, secondly the positive supportive and helpful comments that I receive on my own blog from people who, let's face it, don't really know me but are there for me anyway (when people who do know me couldn't care less!) and I am really appreciative of how you all go out of your way to make me feel good about what i'm doing, even if it's eating too much and not being on track.

Three special things happened to me today. First of all Linda rang me at work, which is so lovely. This is the second time she has called me and we just chatter away like we've known each other forever. She is so down to earth and seems a lot like me, i'm sure if (when) we meet in person we would get on like a house on fire.

Secondly, I got the most gorgeous card from my great friend Michelle. She scrapbooked it herself (i'm assuming) and it's just beautiful. Poor Michelle wasn't well over Easter and if you're reading this young lady, rest up and I hope you get better very very soon.

... and thirdly but by no means leastly (is that even a word??? LOL it is now, let's call it a Briony-ysm!!!) the gorgeous Phillipa sent me a poster for my fridge. What a great reminder of how far I HAVE come! I had forgotten how bad I looked when I was really really fat (not just really fat).

I used to have a poster of this very same fat photo on my pantry at the old house, but since we've moved I haven't had time to put it back up, so thanks Phillipa, I have it printed and ready to hang up before I go to bed. I have come a long way, and you have reminded me just how far (they are probably my absolute worst and absolute best photo so you've picked well!!).

I'm now going to share it with all of you, my present from Phillipa, if I can download it that is, i'm not very good at this stuff.

Yay, I did it!!

Also, not sure whether I mentioned this but i've been looking for a nice bedroom linen set for DS - he is so grown up now and sleeps in a big bed at daycare through the day so we've set up his single bed, but until yesterday I didn't have any linen for it so I just had an old blue blanket over it. I saw a Wiggles cover last week but it was $60 and I was a bit miffed about how expensive it was when it wasn't really all that nice.

Anyway, I went to Target yesterday and found this:

Whatever you do, don't ask me how much it cost and don't anyone mention it to my DH if you do know cos I reckon he would blow up. Anyway, much nicer than the Wiggles dooner cover isn't it!! I couldn't get DS to stand still long enough to take a decent photo. He kept running between the bed and the cot saying "my bed/my cot/my bed/my cot" and trying to work it out for himself.

I'm so proud of him and also a little sad that he is growing up so quickly. He does wees on the big toilet now and the way he's going it won't be long before he's doing "the other" there either. He's not a baby anymore!!

Anyhoo, I have to be at work at 7am, which means getting up at 5am so I had best toddle off to bed now. Hope everyone is having a great week. Thanks again for your support.

Bri

Broken record

I feel like a broken record, all I seem to do in here is moan, whinge and repeat myself alot.
I've been maintaining my weight for way too long, and i'm starting to worry about my health and the health of my DH. I have to set a good example for him and also, and more importantly, for my DS. I really don't want DS growing up thinking it's okay to be overweight or obese, cos it's not. It's SOOOO not.

PLAN OF ATTACK

1. Record my weight everyday, this way i'm accountable.
2. Record my food intake, even if its bad.
3. Exercise at least once a day, even if its only for 15 minutes.
4. Drink 2 litres of water a day. Normally i'm really good with my water intake, but lately i've been slacking off. The last two days i've carried a bottle with me everywhere I go and it's made such a difference to how I feel.
5. No alcohol on school nights. This is a big one. When we moved I was pretty stressed, work was busy (still is) as we're helping out our Cairns office with cyclone claims. This will be the case for a while and I just have to learn to adjust. Also moving house was stressful and we're still not fully unpacked. I used this as an excuse to have a drink everynight. One drink then turns into two, or three and then i'm dehydrated, lethargic and lazy.
6. No more smoking. OK I know you all think I gave up, and I did, but then I started having one or two when I was drinking and it's all downhill from there.
7. Plan ahead. This is a biggie. I know that out of all the blogs I read, the people who are truly successful at this weight loss/change of lifestyle thing plan EVERYTHING, and that is one of the biggest keys.
8. I have to stop letting myself listen to my own excuses. If I can't do this then i'm not motivated enough and i'm wasting my time, and the time of everyone else too. I want to be healthy, slim and fit and i'm not getting there by making excuses and letting myself slip.

GOALS

It's 8 weeks until DS's 2nd birthday. I want to be in the 60's by then. This morning I was 78.4, which is the weight i've been now since Christmas. I was 75.2 last November so i've put on 3.2 kilos since then. D'oh.

I'm going to make up some numbers starting at 58 (number of days til DS's birthday) and i'll mark them off everyday so that I can focus on the decreasing days and how i'm going. I will keep this blog updated, even if it's only to add my weight for the day and whether i'm sticking to my goals. I've been invited on a girls night out at the end of April, but i'm going to decline as I can't be trusted that soon.

I don't want to go backwards anymore.

I don't want to stay the same weight anymore.

I want to lose weight and i'm going to make a concerted effort to do so.

Please, please, please kick me up the backside if I don't stick to my goals. I need all the help I can get. This statement actually screams to me that i'm not motivated enough. I'm just shaking my head at myself now. I really want to be slim. I'm not sure what's stopping me, but like my great friend Michelle says - Fake it til you make it - so that's what i'm going to do.

A new beginning and a new journey to the new me.

Bri

Realisation

I just came to the realisation today, when sitting reading other people's blogs and thinking about how I don't have time to exercise, that I could in fact spend time on the exercise bike instead of blogging.

So I did, and now I am back to blogging, and i'm very proud of myself.

I'm leaving the exercise bike in the loungeroom now, I told DH and he says "good idea". I'm going to do 15 mins every morning and 15 minutes every evening and increase it by a minute a week. Very do-able.

Bri

Happy Easter!!

Happy Easter everyone. Sorry I haven't been around much. I'm reading blogs and keeping up with you all but I don't seem to have time to comment much at the moment. Hopefully i'll be back to normality very soon. I need to unpack some more boxes today and hopefully get everything sorted out a bit more.

The Easter bunny didn't come to me this year, but that's a good thing. I bought DS a small rabbit and I got DH a RockLea Road Egg (which has coconut in it, so I won't be having any cos i'm not a fan of coconut - wasn't that brilliant thinking!!).

I'm going to sit down today and try to sort out a plan of attack today for getting back on track with my diet and exercise. Wish me luck!!

Bri

Back to basics

I know that i've said this a hundred times or more, but it's back to basics for me tomorrow. I've done enough stuffing around and I need to get back into losing "Virgin Fat" as Michelle says!!

We have a garage full of "stuff" at the moment and the exercise bike and treadmill and my workout DVD's are underneath it all somewhere. I will find them all by the end of next weekend and I will set myself up an exercise routine and I will stick to it.

I have 10 weeks until DS's 2nd birthday and i'm determined to be under 70 kilos by then. I can't even imagine how good it will feel to be a 60's girl, but i'm damnwell going to do it.

I have a box of Chocolate Optifast in the cupboard and i'm seriously considering trying it this week. I know every other time i've tried to stick to Optifast I cave in after a couple of days, but even if I did three days that would be a great kickstart to my weightloss again.

I'll keep you posted on that one. I think I might have 2 shakes and a small very healthy dinner so that at least i'm eating something.

I really love living in our new house, even though we have hardly unpacked anything as we haven't had time and there's just crap everywhere, it's so nice to know that it's ours.

The show last night was a cracker. There were about 200 people crammed in to the small auditorium at the club and they were all up dancing and having a great time. DH and I were very tired and a little over it by half way through the night. We're kind of glad we don't have another show until June, we both need a break, but the buzz you get when people are enjoying what you do is great.

OK update on the house - NO i'm not painting the kitchen red, even though I would love to, I think only two people said go for it, everyone else said stick to neutrals or you'll regret it, so i'm caving in to the popular choice and going neutral. Will keep you posted on that cos we probably won't get any painting done until the end of the year now and I may change my mind again.

Hey, it's my prerogative!!

OK, so now I would love to sit here and 'chat' with you all but I have to take advantage of DS being asleep and go and do some more unpacking and sorting out.

I hope everyone is well and kicking butt in the weight loss stakes, especially all you girls who did the Run 4 Kids today, I can't wait to hear how you all went. Kathryn has already given her "RUN" down on it!! LOL, that girl is a machine I swear - I would love to have half of her energy.

Ciao for now,
Bri

Which sports car are you?

I'm a Dodge Viper!

You're all about raw power. You're tough, you're loud, and you don't take crap from anyone. Leave finesse to the other cars, the ones eating your dust.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

A quickie

Yes, i'm still here. Sorry I haven't been posting or reading anyones blogs. My notifier says I have 167 updates to read - D'oh! That's gonna take a while. We have a show tonight but i'll try and post tomorrow and update you on what's been happening.

Brief summary is - still maintaining my weight, still unhappy being fat, still determined to fix that, still being fairly positive.

Ciao

Bri